Me and my BF had a more serious talk about the future yesterday and I'm really excited. We are working towards moving in with each other and both want to have kids someday!!

Started HRT yesterday and all I feel is anxiety

When do I get to the revived emotional spectrum and sense that something broken has been fixed

Had to stop watching a trashy Netflix dating show because one of the challenges was naming countries on a map and I cannot withstand that level of ignorance and cringe on that topic.

fuck it ordering some E finally. who knows what's coming. although if the FDA gets nuked might end up being easier to get who knows

then i'll stare at this bottle before i finally do some self-tests. thinking of microdosing to start and see where it takes me.

weird being a trans-butch i am going to have to find where the masc ends and the femme starts

hello trans mega

Wish I could fully enjoy the schadenfreude, but I fear Trump will make it a priority to lit hormone access in his first 100 days

almost got a post in the last one but it got LOCKED, this is the future tankies want

Watched some british dating show called dinner date, what I learned british women have low standards for men and cooking. Well to be fair none of the couples really worked out and they had some odd people on there like this woman who had never eaten a vegetable in her life every time something was green on her plate.

very much a finger guns in mirror day. Brushed my teeth, washed my face, shaved and a dab of aftershave also noticing face more angular with my weight loss. Probably gonna do a light work out, eat then head out for the day

have to go home soon

Playing some Crusader Kings 3, currently participating in a tourney and my steward gave me her glove as a favour immediately followed by starting a romance scheme against me by winning a duel in the castle courtyard

TRANS GIRL EYE TEST

Hello, could you please look at the chart on the wall?

Yes, just read that word out loud for me, please

the chart

dont know why i havent before but i went to my first concert in girlmode the other day

Just saved my wife's life with my puppy nose

All I can think about right now is estrogen and how much I want it in me. I was supposed to be on my way to getting scheduled for an HRT consultation, which they said would probably be in January, but it's been several weeks and I haven't heard anything from them. I don't even have an appointment scheduled.

Now with recent events considered, I'm questioning whether or not I should just do DIY. The issue is I'm scared of messing something up and much prefer having a doctor help me out.

I want the emotional range so bad

How’s everyone doing?

I'm a bit worried I'll never feel at home with a name ever again

But I'll wait a couple weeks before fully dooming.

I was dragging my feet, fretting about insurance and starting HRT before visiting my parents this Christmas, but I decided that it's time to schedule an appointment for an HRT consult. It's on the 18th!

Playing tabletop games is fun went from playing he/hims to she/they then he/they to my last character she/her before the campaigned was put on hold. Getting to play a character and exploring stuff real fun though I do somewhat worry if I'm playing to any stereotypes or not. Overall my characters have been boneheaded regardless of pronouns but that's just my style

Have slowly come to realize I like the puppygirl thing more as an identity than like a kink thing

Didn't think hexbear's subconscious psychological reaction to the rising tide of fascism in the US to be catposting

There are worse ways to act out~

i have GOT to engage in more zany antics

I'd get into the salty spitoon easy I just don't fw places that have health code violations. You could find me at super weenie hut jr's instead

I got to the makeup store, was able to get help with color matching and get some decent products. I definitely got up-sold, but I do not care.

Now I just need to practice so I can get some decent, femme-looking passport photos done.

Paid for my DIY finally. Hopefully it went well, and it can be sent

I've posted before about my "stuff I just think is neat" or "neat thing I find" windowsill but I got a cute lil' sugarskull pot with some kinda succulent and transferred a hen & chick from the garden into a big mug that sucks to actually drink out of and I think it's cute

(the little 👻 for the skull is a ring that was a decoration for a spoopy Halloween cupcake)

I went to the thrift store and picked out a couple skirts and a cute sweater, the changing room was closed so I tried on a skirt in the McDonald's bathroom and it fit. I don't know how I had the courage to do this because Ive barely worn women's clothing on my own let alone in public but I just kept it on as I took the bus home. I was giddy laughing to myself because I looked in the mirror and actually liked how I looked. I have some thinking to do

This daylight savings kinda sweet, got more time to sleep and per chance to dream

Feeling more comfortable in my skin than possibly ever.

I like my new name, and it's become a natural part of me very quickly.

My preferred clothes ("women's" clothing), which previously I had to work up a lot of emotions to put on, are just a matter of course now. I wear them without even really thinking about it.

I'm less concerned with words like man/woman/enby or pronouns. Just focusing on my own experience. More confident and comfortable with my sexuality.

4 months of laser hair removal is paying off. I have a lot of sessions in front of me, but the results are real and noticeable. I'm happy every time I see it in the mirror. I don't break down crying after I can't get a close shave anymore. If I have a little stubble, it's okay. It'll be gone soon enough.

Voice training continues to be an obstacle. I find it very emotionally draining, but I'm trying. I've done more consistent training in the last few weeks than ever before. It's not where it needs to be, but it's good. Eventually, it will become second nature like the clothes.

All together, thoughts of transition are less fear-based and more colored with calm excitement and confidence.

It feels good, people. I'm really embodying the love/loves atm

Started new meds today lets fucking go! Been going up and down all day, probably will continue to do so as i acclimate to them. Restless... But doing fine all in all :medicated:

The best thing about losing weight is being able to sit cross legged in unconventional ways I haven’t been able to since my early 20s

I wish I had started at a high dose off the bat instead of fucking myself over on the first few crucial years with low and inconsistent doses.
I wish I was skinnier/more comfortable with my weight so I could feel fine gaining weight for HRT affects.
I sometimes wish I was just ace so I could have that as an excuse for my hang ups with physical intimacy.

When will the internet stop showing me guy ads?