I've decided I'm going to keep my thoughts private for a little bit. Thank you for your kindness.
I am safe right now, so please don't worry.
BountifulEggnog
joined 2 years ago
It should be grounds for 
more sad, si, sh, drugs
I genuinely have to do something. I am being drug down into quicksand and I'm just bringing everyone down with me. I'm having suicidal fantasies. This is not working. I am in agony.
Trying to decide between getting a rubber band and seeing if that will make me feel better or if I should smoke weed. Leaning towards weed although I'm not a fan of how often I've been doing that. I know you can't help I just want to be heard.
sad
No longer feel good. Literally what the fuck does my brain even want from me.
god this just fucking hurts, today had been so good. I can't pin my sadness on anything either. I'm not overwhelmed with dysphoria, or envy, or fear. I'm just really sad.
God I wish I was wearing a skirt right now.
I need to start moving towards it so bad.
Sorry if it sounded like I was frustrated with you. Thank you.
I may post this feeling later, it is a common one.
eating (but fucky)
Wow I actually should fix my eating habits, they are not great chat.
But at the same time I've felt good all day and food tastes better 
I have no skirt, but I must get replies
the only left is to remove it and destroy it.
Obviously you know more about medical stuff then I do, but I actually do not understand the harm in dropping it in a jar of formalin. I'd be fine to pay extra or sign whatever paper work. The only thing I've heard is some vague notion of legal issues.
Getting to see the inside of your brain is super cool though, I've seen a few people who got copies of their scans and 3d printed them.
That website looks amazing, I'm really looking forward to ordering.
Aw >.< but it will be a big thing, for me. :meow-hug: