Realizing that I'm a background character to everyone in my life makes me want to be even more invisible

Although I'm finding that I'd love to transition purely out of spite at this point

Edit: Just poking back in to share that my mood has evolved into more of a righteous fury on my behalf, less of a resentment. Although I'm generally mad at the world, and this experience has not changed that.

I don't know if the punished-people-pleaser -> scorched-earth-isolationist pipeline is super common but golly, I'm riding it

I'm so goddamn stressed out rn

Join us on tracha nerds https://matrix.to/#/#tracha-space:transfem.dev

where to find the estrogen that gives you G cup massive anime tiddies instantly?

MODS! OP IS LEAVING ME IN SUSPENSE REGARDING THE SUBJECT MATTER OF THE POST, PLEASE BAN! /j

In all seriousness, I'm excited to see what you write up

I don't think I know what it's like to be worried about. People have literally never worried about me. I can say concerning shit, do concerning shit, and nobody ever says anything. If they worry, they certainly don't tell me.

dupreshun

Iowkey I think I could get pretty bad without anyone noticing. apparently I have sorcerer-level abilities to fooling people into not realizing that I'm one bad text away from lighting my hair on fire

I might just embrace being fucking unknown, it's like you had your chance to ask a goddamn question. I give up

Tracha has multiple rooms now! Tracha Vent and Tracha Aux (to make it less overwhelming at peak hours), per popular request. If you still have a reason for not joining please lmk and PM me! For more details please check https://rentry.co/tracha#tracha-rooms

A while ago, I filled in for someone who called in sick in mental health - they didn't have anybody to cover this new patient they were accepting and they were a kid and we had the extra staff. Anyway, sitting in that little room in silence was one of the best few hours of work I'd had in a while. One of the regulars came in to cover, finally, but they still needed 2. We sat together in total silence reading for an hour, I switched with someone from my unit, and when my coworker came back she talked about how horrible it was just sitting in silence lol. I got way too many people who always want my ear or my opinion or there's some proverbial fire to handle at work and then home everyone's yakking or I have some event or agreed to a presentation.

But that few hours in calm silence and peace was so sweet~

I do not get the people that find all the socializing stuff I have to do daily between work and home life as appealing. Put me back in a quiet room with no one else or at least someone who doesn't want to talk

习近平，我的人民渴望自由。请发送东风导弹

it's the long-awaited return of music monday - watcha been listening to? also don't judge me for the grimes album okay her music is good

Reposting since I posted it right before the last megathread closed

So, previously I put out feelers for a super-specific idea for a TTRPG campaign and didn't get particular traction. That's okay.

I want to put out more general feelers for a tracha tabletop roleplaying game thing. For opsec and accessibility purposes, I am still thinking scheduled synchronous text chat with matrix chat. For the game system, would rule out D&D 5e or other neo-trad game, but would otherwise be open. My current preferences for running games leans towards OSR/NSR games, but I still enjoy more narrative games as well (PbtA, FitD, etc...).