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recent learnings from the gay bar (NSFW):
every switch is flippable
when the poly couch is occupied (by cis dudes - literally transphobic!) and you drop all the transbians off on the floor, things get a lot wilder
i'm crushing hard on the two cuties i ended up in a cuddle pile with, can't get out of my head how sweet and kind they are and how good it felt when they were snuggling up to me and each other like the two loveliest kittens. Damn.
Friend just got boob sweat for the first time and we invite you to celebrate with us.
Injection done! Let's see, that would be... number 32! I actually had to go back and look, I stopped keeping track a while ago 
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bask in the magnificence of SHODAN
My mind seems to be calming down now. Thankfully. Seems that PMS may have exacerbated my negative feelings a small bit there, but I'm coming down from it thanks to everyone sharing their stories with me in the last thread. That said...
CW: Dysphoria and family talk
I still feel a severely profound sadness when I see a pregnant woman or woman with her child(ren). And I still feel super fake, but not nearly as badly as I did.
Furthermore, my mother just canNOT understand why I've been so depressed. I try to explain it to her and she feeds me lines like "Kids suck. You should feel lucky." I don't care. You simply just can't grasp it. JFC she just keeps trying to add gasoline to the fire.
I also measured my breasts for the first time since surgery about 2 months ago. My bra size is apparently 38K, but I want to try on some bras to ensure that that is actually the case. That just seems overly large to me. Granted I was a small 38F prior to surgery, but still. 38K is like true 
territory and seems unrealistic.
Becoming increasingly nervous about my sister’s wedding. 
I thought I’d be happier with where I would be in my transition by the time it arrived, but it’s a month away and I’m just as mentally ill as ever.
Idk what I am going to wear, or how I will possibly show up in girl clothes without feeling like a total joke.
My sister just informed me we are doing some stupid shit with my mom and all our siblings where it’s just us in the middle of the dance floor for like a minute, which just adds to the pressure.
I’m coming to your wedding to be supportive not to perform!
It should be illegal to just include this kind of shit in your wedding without other people’s consent I didn’t sign up for this! 
genital stuff, sex stuff
So I have virtually zero sex drive. It's never really bothered me, but part of me has always wondered if it was a low testosterone thing, and that wonder has increased drastically since I apparently had a history of that when I was way younger and my mom didn't tell me 'til very recently.
So all of that to say, I'm kind of wondering if I will gain a sex drive as my hormone levels approach what they should be. I'm also told that if I don't use my penis while on HRT it'll hurt a lot if I try to again. That's something I want to avoid, but I have quite literally never masturbated or anything out of a lack of interest. So I'm at this weird spot of maybe being horny and wanting to do sex stuff later but not really having any good way to keep my member from the edge of death.
I'm not sure how much sense I'm making. I don't really have a specific question outside of "is this a legit worry", but I'm looking for thoughts from the infinitely wise trans council
It's freezing today and I had to shovel.
how wonderful another chance to tell you all how much I love you and how grateful I am for your support and inspiration. Hexbears made my life so much better ❤️
< me after finally shaving my face again (happy)
Me sowing (buying white sneakers): Haha fuck yeah!!! Yes!!
Me reaping (they get dirty in an hour): Well this fucking sucks. What the fuck.
How do people drink the “proper” amount of water?
it's really hard. having a nice water bottle can help, one that keeps it cold. that's what has helped the most for me before. lately i've been managing to drink a pint when i get up but still end up neglecting it throughout the day. i drink a bunch of soda too though which doesn't help either
Without a water bottle I never get enough water, but with one I'm *runs to the bathroom constantly* girl.
I might be the most mentally ill transgender to ever exist. 
I visited the beach my Grandpa used to visit. He was quieter than me. On the way, as I drove through the woods, I saw a cardinal.
I feel more kinship with the dead than the living right now. It's hard.
does "DIY HRT" mean synthesizing it yourself, or can you also buy premade stuff outside of prescriptions? I want to try to stick with prescriptions as long as I can, but I kind of want to keep some extra around just in case things get desperate here in amerikkka. if it's the former... well let's just say I'd strongly prefer the latter, if anyone can recommend reputable vendors.
Maybe we should have DIY resources in the mega text
We actually have DIY resources pinned in this comm https://hexbear.net/post/3016455 (under the "Links" section)
it usually refers to the latter, buying grey-market HRT online that usually comes from pharmaceutical manufacturers but there are reputable "homebrew" suppliers too, usually of injectable esters. it's been a while for me and i'm not american so i don't have much specific advice. i think this is still considered a good resource: https://hrtcafe.net/ if you scroll to "pharmaceutical vendors" you can see some reputable options, where they ship to, and what payment options they take. it's a great way of building a stockpile of HRT which is a very valuable thing to do, i wish you luck with it! worth noting that by far the most cost-effective option is definitely going to be buying the "homebrew" injectable esters. stockpiling factory-made pills or patches or gel is very possible too but will come at a relatively more premium price.
Realizing that I'm a background character to everyone in my life makes me want to be even more invisible
Although I'm finding that I'd love to transition purely out of spite at this point
Edit: Just poking back in to share that my mood has evolved into more of a righteous fury on my behalf, less of a resentment. Although I'm generally mad at the world, and this experience has not changed that.
I don't know if the punished-people-pleaser -> scorched-earth-isolationist pipeline is super common but golly, I'm riding it
Seems like none of my ID's will need to be renewed until after Trump's term is over. Hopefully I won't have to worry about whether the x gender marker exists then.
where to find the estrogen that gives you G cup massive anime tiddies instantly?
Where is the estrogen that turns you into an anime girl 
there's no such thing as estrogen that makes you look like misato katsuragi
why bother living
MODS! OP IS LEAVING ME IN SUSPENSE REGARDING THE SUBJECT MATTER OF THE POST, PLEASE BAN! /j
In all seriousness, I'm excited to see what you write up 
I'm so goddamn stressed out rn
mild vent, slight drug mention
cis friend of mine messaged me for the first time in a little bit. saw the noto and was kind of hoping he was gonna be checking in, seeing how i was doing given the Everything of Everything going on. he was just complaining about how cold it is outside. yeah, sure, thanks for checking in buddy, guess i'll just go back to getting high alone 
idk. maybe i'm being uncharitable.
I don't think I know what it's like to be worried about. People have literally never worried about me. I can say concerning shit, do concerning shit, and nobody ever says anything. If they worry, they certainly don't tell me.
dupreshun
Iowkey I think I could get pretty bad without anyone noticing. apparently I have sorcerer-level abilities to fooling people into not realizing that I'm one bad text away from lighting my hair on fire 
I might just embrace being fucking unknown, it's like you had your chance to ask a goddamn question. I give up
Does anyone have a saved version/instructions on how to save a local version of the whole website that shows u how to make ur own HRT from E powder?
Wget or httrack can download websites. I have used httrack to "mirror" (download and rehost) marx2mao.
