Getting back to weight training for the first time in 5 years. Just had an absolute DEMON leg workout and it felt amazing (pure suffering), my ass is NOT walking right tomorow. When i first started transitioning I was so terrified of even touching a weight becasue i wanted to pass so bad, despite being an advanced lifter who genuinley loved (and still do love) the proccess of resistance training; but a couple years living as a stealther, 3 ish years of HRT working its magic, and having bottom surgery has gotten my mental to a point where im confidant enough to go back to lifiting heavy and fighting my demons in the gym and it feels great. I was SHOCKED at how much weaker I was too, obviously, I knew that i would be weaker after years on HRT and out of the gym, but WOW I used to be able to pull 405 deadlifts at the same body weight I am now, but earlier today I was doing working sets with 135. I guess I dont have it in me (yet) to be the trans super althete all the right wingers told me i would become I'll have to work on it, lol.

Last few days have been all like
(╥﹏╥)👍
but now its more like
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Sad
Maybe ill get to
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Soon enough

Questioning bc i like being misgendered. It just makes me happy i cant avoid smiling. Im usually perceived as feminine, but this one woman used masculine pronouns for meee. My family could never do that ._.

actually ordered the progesterone this time. looking forward to it turning up

I swear my ass is squishier today

new mega, same me

Get notified, bitch!

My gf says I don’t look like a guy, I hope she is right.

nsfw implications

i need it

One of the truly great crimes of Fucking Matrix is that deleting messages is impossible. "Oops, something went wrong..." Fuck you fix it idiot.

down with cis

This new batch of patches is probably my best yet, the least amount of bleeding on stencils that I've ever had (outside a 45 Grave patch whose stencil I probably should just remake at this point.) I wish I could show them off here but alas... anyways I'm super happy about them and excited to put them on my clothes. Also I probably need to buy more white ink soon.

So I've been dating someone who identifies as a cis man and whose gender presentation I can only describe as "pretty gay twink" but who has been on estrogen for 4 years. I was a little confused about it when we first met, but it's actually very cool. I like going out with a guy who I can also talk about trans stuff / hrt with.

I'm not totally sure how things are going with us tho. We spend time together and it's really good. We go on fun dates, cuddle a lot, and have some nice conversations. But I feel like after that it gets all weird. Like we'll barely talk during the week, or he'll leave me on read for house. And it's been a bit hard to make plans recently. We've been doing this for almost two months now. So idk like are we still in the early dating phase, or are we fwbs, or is he just not all that into me? The ambiguity is making me uncomfortable.

I somehow survived

I got suspended from ow2 for being toxic

I don't say any slurs so it was probably saying fuck too many times in a pointed manner. (I probably deserved it, i ain't gonna lie)

Though part of me thinks I was already being mass reported because i've been playing a lot of sombra this season and also i rock the trans name card.

Guess i'll see if support deigns to tell me what no-no words I said this time (last time they threatened to ban me if I kept asking) (I never found out what I said)

is it femme coded to step on a bear trap and then yell YEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWCH

There are 665 comments. I am here to change that.

thatcher's worst crime is personally murdering the advanced passenger train

HARDCORE TO THE MEGA!

i have no idea how i used to post like 80-100 comments a day in the megathread. i've lost my touch

Noooooo!!!!! My favorite hate-reading/self-harm substack went private between yesterday and today! I'm certainly not going to give them an email address, so apparently I'm doomed to have one less transphobic website I read religiously. This is probably a good thing, all in all, but some of their stuff was really funny sometimes. A lot more of it was absolutely awful, sure, but where else will I read about how minecraft makes kids trans?!?

i love the minecraft server. it's so nice logging back in and seeing all the progress our little gays have made