Explain this to me chat. If I'm actually autistic, why when I get over stimulated do I listen to quiet music? Would it not make more sense to try and have silence?
I think I have demonstrated I am not actually autistic, because I like music too much.
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I won't do that, but it's a good suggestion.
I'm sorry you had to deal with someone like me. I'm sure it is scary to watch happen. Especially if it's bad enough to go to the hospital.
I know, thank you though. I wasn't really awake long enough to do anything about it so it was just happening to me.
self harm, edit
Don't need this shit here, did it a little bit but not bad. No means to be finished. I can't describe my feelings publicly. Thank you everyone who sent/sends me nice messages, it means a lot.
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Unfortunately it's probably going to be either overstimulating or boring as fuck, but thank you, I'm hoping so too.
:meow-hug: sorry you don't feel good either.
I can't imagine the disappointment :trans-sad:
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Part of why I slept and felt so terrible is I kept waking up with fucking erections.sad, talking about self harm
Woke up still feeling like shit, hasn't gotten better. Terrible sleep last night, extremely dysphoric. It's mostly sh fantasies right now, my leg is burning. Have shit to do all day too. Have knives the whole day. Idk. Probably fucked.
Sh urges are real bad. :::
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I want to believe you, I just can't right now.
Aw 
I always love seeing you. I'll try to I guess. A lot of people seem supportive. It definitely helps.
self harm talk
Tried sharpening my dull pos knife, won't sharpen. Probably not salvageable.
Yea see, and you're neurotypical too. Sometimes you just have to listen to the same song and mess with stuff for a little bit in a very neurotypical way.
This is a bit but knowing you do the same is genuinely very validating. That's honestly always been a thing I've been kinda "stuck" on but is obviously just silliness, now.