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The photo is a 1974 photo of Leslie Feinberg, from the FBI file on hir. I've written a piece on my interpretation of Transgender Warriors and Trans Liberation, but I don't think it's quite polished enough, so I'll post it later. Instead, I'll go over hir FBI file: https://s3.amazonaws.com/NARAprodstorage/lz/dc-metro/rg-065/6282555/Batch0010/6282555_100-HQ-480756.PDF.

The FBI thought Feinberg could be violating the Communist Control Act, advocating the overthrow of the government, and engaging in rebellion. Needless to say, a hero to all of us. Feinberg was a member of the Workers World Party (the party still exists, but more notably PSL split from it), which apparently wasn't openly advocating for the overthrow of the U.S, they just think it's inevitable.

My favorite line? "captioned subject is believed to be a white female, who became male through some kind of sex change operation, and is possibly homosexual". Some interesting language choice, and it's an interesting snapshot into the evolution of Leslie's identity.

The FBI found Leslie's place of birth and birthdate from public school records. It's a bit of an interesting look into all of the many places the FBI can get their information, along with how information like that was so much more patchwork before the digital age.

"Interview of subject is not being recommended because of the questionable nature of his sexuality". Hmm, interesting.

It's interesting how their investigation spanned multiple cities, from Kansas City to NYC to Bufffalo to Boston. It probably involved quite a few officers, though I'm sure it wasn't the main focus for all of them.

There's some interesting mention about changes in Leslie's gender identity. Born a girl, for a time wearing a beard and mustache, then going back to "she". I'm sure we all know, Feinberg's gender didn't stop evolving there.

"Subject reportedly contributes all extra money to WWP", Leslie definitely was dedicated to the cause. Leslie doesn't attend NYC WWP meetings, but the FBI doesn't mention why.

The FBI isn't immune to typoes, Leslie did some "criminal terspass" that garnered some attention.They wasted some time checking if Leslie was in Boston, but verified where Leslie in NYC lived by pretending to be a part of the Voter Registration Commission.

There's a whole 43 pages of documents, all just from 1974-75. There's plenty of interesting tidbits in there, so maybe check it out.


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[โ€“] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 17 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago) (24 children)

bottom dysphoria, sad, hornyI fucking hate masturbating. Fucking disgusting shit. The dysphoria, the sadness, the guilt, it all sucks. I never want to feel horny again. Why the hell does my brain do this shit to me.
spoiler suicide
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spoiler probably the worst I've posted, seriously Honestly how tf can I not want to destroy my brain for what it puts me through? Fucking sick part of my body. Everything else tries to do its job at least. Not my brain. Deeply unwell, makes me feel awful constantly. So many issues, many not fixable. Should be destroyed. It will not be satisfied in life. If I had a gun right now I'd shoot myself. This feeling has only gotten worse with time and I don't see a way out. I felt a lot of these things as a teen and I do not wish to go back. Why, with the promise of clothes and hrt being soon (tm), am I continuing to get worse? Conditions get better and I feel worse? Deeply unserious. These spirals are almost every day at this point, and the fantasies are getting more graphic, more intense, longer lasting, everything. I can't go back to how things used to be.

Dear god why do I not have a gun.

I know this is a very selfish thing to post, so I may as well tell you all that I'm physically safe right now. I don't know how reassuring that is given all of what I just said but whatever, its the best reassuring I can give you, dear reader. :::

[โ€“] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 7 points 4 months ago (11 children)

more sad/suicide shittbh I don't even deserve girl clothes, just want a gun.

Sorry I'm so shitty chat, if I was better I'd keep these thoughts to myself. Just can't stop myself from spreading sadness I guess.

[โ€“] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 5 points 4 months ago* (last edited 4 months ago)

self harm talkTried sharpening my dull pos knife, won't sharpen. Probably not salvageable.

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