Trans

I'm at 8 months on HRT as of a couple of days ago.

As for why, the short answer is to find that piece of myself that's been missing since puberty.

A hormonal transition always felt like something reserved for trans folks. I knew I wasn't a cis man or a trans woman, but those were my only options in pre-Internet Texas. I told myself I could put up with it because I didn't really have a choice, and for far too long, I didn't.

Learning that amab enbies given the choice to tailor their protocol actually do report benefits from HRT was part of a series of significant coincidences and happy accidents that finally got me out of Texas for good.

Once I knew it was an option, it was as if the reality itself conspired to lead me here. Seriously. It'd take me half an hour to type out just the chain of events that culminated in my partners' accidental adoption of a heat-stressed street husky which got them on board with moving north before I could even broach the subject. I find it's best to listen when the universe is giving such a clear signal. XD

When I realized I was probably trans, medical transition seemed like an obvious choice. I think if I didn't need to medically transition, I wouldn't have socially transitioned. I live in a scary transphobic place, so there is immense pressure to stay in the closet.

I am about eight months into medically transitioning, mtf. Over these last few years, I have been on a journey of taking better care of myself and becoming healthier, happier. I was working out really consistently, and I started to see myself developing a muscular dude body, and I kept looking in the mirror like "I should be happy about this, but I am actually getting further away from how I feel inside." That's when it ocurred to me that I have been trying to fit into a box all my life that I don't fit into, and I started thinking about transition.

This last year has easily been the happiest of my life, and the changes I see in myself bring me joy instead of dysphoria. Not a regret in my mind

Already about 10 months in, and I chose to because I've never been happy with my male body and even if I don't completely pass, I'd still be happy with a more feminine body shape. Plus I have a very strong suspicion that I'm intersex and had some estrogen sensitivity at some point during my puberty (or still do), but that's not really a reason why I chose to start.

I've already been medically transitioned for about three months.

I've had crippling dysphoria pretty much since puberty. I would never go out and never wanted to socialize and meet new people because of it. It's gonna take a while for me not to have significant dysphoria, but now I know that that day will come and I'm not fated to live that way forever.

Dysphoria aside, the hormone itself did wonders on my brain. Around two weeks after taking it, my chronic major depression was greatly reduced. It still has that effect to this day. Almost like my brain's wired for it.

I plan to get top surgery as soon as possible. Still deciding on bottom surgery. Maybe if there are better options in the future.

I'm concerned about the health issues and long term effects that come with testosterone. There's not enough research on it. I would prefer not to get heart disease and all that shit but my quality of life has gone up significantly since starting. I was hardly living life since I was such a mess of anxiety and depression, so I figure the tradeoff's worth it. I really hope I don't get heart disease...

Also cost... probably gonna get into some debt with top surgery, medication prices, and the costs of changing legal documents. Then student loan debts on top of that. A box of testosterone gel costs $70 with goodrx. I hate the idea of debt, but there's not much I can do.

yes because i'll probably kill myself otherwise :3

I do plan to transition, but that is realistically 4-5 years away, which sucks because I'm over 50 and only very recently realized I'm a trans woman. Tempus fugit and all that, but I want it done like tomorrow. So much wasted time already. I know the process needs to happen, but a girl can dream, right?

I've been on HRT for over a year, and I feel so much better. I have ESP! (Estradiol Spironolactone Progesterone) 🥰️

I need bottom surgery. I think about it constantly. My recent meme on /traa expresses my emotional roller-coaster pretty well.

i would if it weren't prohibitively expensive and i think i have to move out of this fuckhell state first

also it might be super difficult for me to get T regardless if i'm in a red or blue state

I started my medical transition 7 years (and 2 days) ago. Because I'm older, and have been working most of my life, I had funds saved in my government mandated superannuation fund (sort of like a 401K in the US). I was able to access it to cover all of my surgeries using those funds.

I've had pretty much every surgery available to trans fem folk, and rushed through them in the first couple of years of my medical transition, and they've done a great deal to alleviate my dysphoria, but I'm not sure I'd necessarily do them all the same way again if I had the chance to do over.

Absolutely plan to. Going through the gender dysphoria bible showed me I don't see a single dealbreaker as far as femminizing HRT goes, and a hell of a lot to gain (or more specifically, lose).

Greatly reduced body hair and redistrubition of future fat (existing fat stays until you work it off I've heard) are the big ones for me. A bit more "junk in the trunk" would hopefully make chairs a bit more comfortable.

Already have to shift things around to see my feet (I want to lose a good 40+pounds minimum, more if a doc tells me I'm still overweight). 😅 Never particularly wanted the bits that came stock downstairs. The jumblies could fall off tomorrow and I'd be thrilled (aside from re-learning how to pee, which I imagine is fairly quick to get the hang of, standing is overrated and messy anyway)

Social is the hard part for me; mom would probably be fine, very accepting gem of a lady there. Dad is a crapshoot, not sure I'd care longterm how he reacts. Workplace is... a shitload of old white military veterans with no sense of tact, some of whom were moved to a different area for their behavior. And my dad is in this workplace as well. 😐

EVERYTHING would become a lot easier if I was in a different state. Don't exactly have much in the way of a friend group as is, not a lot to lose other than closeness to parents and access to one of my favorite places.

I’m post op (bottom). I made my body the way I wanted my body to be

I'll have been on hrt for 1 month in 3 days, it's been pretty nice. My symptoms were never crippling, but I've gone from being essentially dead inside to being able to feel a sense of wonder at the sunset <3 I was very worried that it wouldn't help as most accounts I've read about trans peoples experiences are from people with more severe symptoms, but I figured it was worth a shot.

Also waiting for gel to dry sucks >:|

I started talking testosterone 11 years ago, I've only ever been on gel due to a needle phobia, and I had top surgery eight years ago. Testosterone straight up cured my depression (although I'm not sure it should be called depression but whatever) so that was pretty great.

HRT cured my depression. I was nervous, but it blew my expectations out of the water.

Been on HRT for 11 years now. Would love to have bottom surgery but just can't afford it.

Shit's expensive, yo.

I plan to medically transition because that would make me happier. Dysphoria isn't a big problem for me, it's there but pretty subtle, so I probably could live as a man for the rest of my life but I would regret it.

If anything it's going to be HRT. Too worried about complications and the definitive character of surgery for it to even be considered an option at this point.

I'm about to start taking HRT. I have my next endo appointment next Tuesday and will probably get my first prescription there.

I want to medically transition because without I'm unable to achieve my desired body.

I've been planning to do so 5 years before cracking my eggggg