I swear recently I can feel that I've shrunk almost an inch in height. Like everything feels faintly shorter now even though it's extremely unlikely that I actually shrunk quickly enough to notice like that

Do I message the admins if I want new pronouns added? Craving cat based pronouns.

Also at that there's so many cat/kitten based pronouns I can't decide which I like best

friday rice? friday rice

i finally finished children of memory and came to report it, just to find out that it's no longer my megathread :cri:

anyone want to work with me

i could do with competent coworkers

white boy shocks everyone in the restaurant by touching a live wire

The new partner love is flowing very strongly. Trying to get prepped for Valentine's day. Anyone know of some nice stockings with hearts on them?

i swear to god every time i see office workers reminiscing on the time they got to stay home and bake sourdough or whatever while there was a plague i want to injure them

Omg modded Minecraft is so much fun

unlimited rice on the hexbear world

Is anybody here particularly good with character design or color theory? I'm trying to figure out what colored clothing/armor would go well with colored hair, and I always tend to fall on whites/greys/blacks.

it's bolshevikProglace now.

She judge my slop too harshly

Feelin' tired and sad today

Keep thinking about a stranger I ran into yesterday and wish I had been more outgoing and friendly, they seemed cool but I was stressed out and probably seemed bitchy and not very approachable

I feel like such a fuckin' goober a lot of the time in public but worry that I come across as intimidating or something

::: spoiler dysphoria, suicide My brothers went to the liquor store without me, my cousins are all friends and have excluded me and my siblings, I want to be launched into the sun, and I don't think anyone would care if I disappeared. My presence has no impact.

Shit weekend. I wasted it. Nobody sees me. God fucking dammit. I want to disappear

I feel more and more like I can only do self-care by shutting everyone out and deciding that I don't care anymore. And that's a hard thing to face, because I feel really let down. I was supposed to communicate perfectly in order to get help, and I couldn't, so no wonder I'm where I'm at. It stinks.

I don't like having violent thoughts. I don't know where to put this shit. I could scream at everyone. I could break something. If this is all a lie let me just blow it the fuck up and start over without any pretense of having somebody

Like I have been dead fucking alone with my thoughts for half a decade. I could rip my hair out but it's probably gonna fall out on its own. Then I'll look even more like a guy. What a strapping ~~young~~ man.

Obviously I'm stupid for expecting someone to notice an abrupt and obvious change in my behaviors. Obviously I expect too much from people. Which tells me that I, once again, have let everyone down. Like, this shit never ends! I don't understand the distinction between having zero expectations from others and just not caring. I'm getting really close to not caring what happens. It sucks.

I just wanna disappear and transition and never have to deal with these people again. It's not even that they aren't accepting,they just don't see me regardless and I feel invisible. I just want a new life with people who I don't have to wonder if they care or not. Like I am so sick of all of it and nobody caring. Am I a psychopath for being sad and hoping that someone notices. Am I really just supposed to say "hey can we talk . uh uh I'm SAD!" like a toddler. What the fuck am I supposed to do

Ash was such a fake friend trading Butterfree for a rat, don't care for the 10 year old excuse I was a perfect 10 yo myself who never traded one of my friends