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hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!
the list as it stands:
SwitchyandWitchy* (1/20 (The darkest day in the history of our democracy.) - 1/26)
SILLY BEAN@lemmygrad.ml* (1/27 - 2/2)
AshenWolf* (2/3 - 2/9)
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CW: Severe dysphoria and depression, discussion of self-harm, relationship and familial issues
I can't be around here right now. Everything is setting of severe dysphoria and depression. I've had to completely disconnect from any talk about gender, sex, or relationships as it torpedoes my mental state immediately. I've even been avoiding my friends and "family." Family being my mother and sister, who are now on the verge of being tossed out of my fucking life. It's like everyone lacks empathy. No one understands the sheer immensity of the pain and suffering I'm going through right now. "Just cheer up. Smile and you'll be fine. That's no reason to be so upset." Thanks mom. Go fuck yourself. You've not exactly been the most helpful during my transition these last few years. The shadow of my ex continues to hang over me and I've destroyed some things in my house that remind me of him. I've been extremely not well if that's not clear. I even skipped out on making the topic this week cause I just can't. I'm glad I value my life so highly otherwise I might not be here right now. It's crossed my mind on more than one occasion recently, too. Even my therapist isn't fucking helping me. Ugh.
I just wish I was born a woman. I feel like a horrible facsimile. Like someone was given a doll and parts and told to do their best. This vagina. These breasts. They all feel horrendously fake. I feel like someone took a hobby knife to a Ken doll and just did what they could. I can't stand it. I just want to feel me. I wish I could've grown up properly. I wish I could have a uterus. I wish I could have children to raise and watch grow up and give a good life to. I wish I could've had all those experiences in life that cis-women just take for granted. I can't take this. I just can't.
I know almost none of you really know me or care about me and I apologize for shitting up the mega. All of you are so happy with what you're going through that you don't deserve to see the absolute trainwreck that is my life right now. I'm sorry, but with no one to properly just vent to, I resort to coming here. Legitimately if you don't like it and don't care to see this, I will stop. Just tell me in reply or PM. Seriously.
I like how "NB" is apparently Chinese internet slang for very cool/awesome. 
it's me, very cool and awesome person 
ff
hate it when the site calls me out 
I have to start finding a replacement for my HRT soon, I only have enough to last the month... but theres so much fucking work to do fucking gah
immature
going to the theatre to see smegmalion by george bernard shart
I'm listening to "A Funeral of Flowers" from Fire Emblem: Three Houses, and I just noticed the channel name: Ashen Wolf. I am an imposter...
smh smh smh you must be destroyed now smh
got to watch Nosferatu in a theater all to myself, which was great because 1) I feel awkward watching sex scenes with other people, even if they're strangers several feet away from me, and 2) I got to sit in girly positions without feeling self conscious about it, and stand up when I felt tired of sitting
Been hearing that trans people have been getting bullied on RedNote. Is this true? Iβve been on that app for a year and never really noticed any strong anti-queer behavior compared to places like instagram
I don't know, but I've seen instances of Westerners leaving queerphobic comments, and then of course it also gets posted on Twitter and the like in order to twist narratives and show how much the Chinese actually hate LGBT people, when in reality they welcome everyone. That's one downside of everyone knowing about Xiaohongshu now, with bad actors creating accounts as well. Even some fascist losers like Nick Fuentes and Candace Owens decided to create an account there. I really hope people report this shit. Apparently the company is scrambling to get English speaking moderators. I hope that'll allow them to clamp down on this faster.
Western chuds will do everything in their power to stir shit up and disrupt this progressive development. Constant vigilance is required. A bullet to the head of these scumfuckers would be nicer, but hey.
ive successfully switched classes from an asshole teacher who took an insane problem with me to a class that seems to have a good and mature professor. Besides that whole debacle my week has been pretty good. I have a job now too!
CW: Dysphoria
My dysphoria has been building up this week. I still have cold symptoms, and can't wear proper make-up due to wiping my nose/mask that smears it. Almost cried a few times this week, either looking at my outfit or at my body or my face. Wearing eye makeup helps, but I still feel too nervous to wear mascara to work. Once my nails grow a bit more I think I need to start painting them. They were at a decent length last weekend, but I chickened out and cut them instead.
Also still worried about the passport, but my therapist wrote a very nice support letter that I hope clears things up for the passport agency.
Who up transing their gender
Literally just took my pills 
I'm down transing my gender 
I'm up and trying 
I am smoothing
πΆ I am fading πΆ
i am running out of room on my bed for more plushies and it is A Problem.
This is what bunk beds are for.
friday rice? friday rice
You'll be very pleased to hear what we ate tonight
::: spoiler cw relationship trauma, anxiety (but this is good news!!) I had the literal actual best fucking therapy appointment of my life yesterday, holy shit.
I have been struggling with like really bad anxiety lately, to the point where I've had trouble eating and sleeping. During a therapy appointment yesterday, I realized that a part of me was reliving a particularly horrible fight I had with my first domestic partner, in which I became quite physically ill after.
Since she's a parts therapist, she suggested that this part of me that makes me feel sick from anxiety might be what's known as an "Exile." The way I'd describe it is "I'm not okay and I don't know what's going to make it okay."
I can't get nexted spoilers working, so skip this paragraph if you don't want graphic imagery. I imagine it as a anthropomorphic heart with an arrow stuck in it, bleeding for 15 years, lol. (oh and most of the heart tissue is infected, too...)
She suggested that when I talk to people, I try to show up as my core self, instead of letting this part run things, and to treat it like I would a hurting friend.
So I sure did lose a couple of hours of sleep last night due to it flaring up, but I tried this method and despite being a bit sleep-deprived today, I feel absolutely great, the anxiety didn't take over, and today I feel like its possible for me to heal from this traumatic memory.
Thanks for listening, chat, I just needed to share :)
I just remembered a thing I used to do a lot. I'd have a thought about one of my lady friends that included the word "she" or "her" and it would stun lock me and I'd just sit there thinking about the word and sometimes even saying it out loud and admiring the way it sounded and wondering why he and him couldn't sound as nice and thinking that unfair lol.
It's so funny to me thinking back to how CLUELESS I was in comparison to how obvious things should have been
I still stunlock myself thinking about how nice she and her sound but now it's caused by thinking about myself haha
I 
Friday Rice
Managed to fix my sleep schedule, then I woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare and couldn't sleep and now it's fucked again 
Mood
built some furniture for my wife 
You make it sound like you did all the work
when the scam-caller calls you βmaβamβ
lmao if a scammer did that for me i'd probably just tell them i know it's a scam but i'm so flattered that i'll give them my credit card info anyway
I didnβt know it was a scam until my wife forced me to hang up 
I am happy to announce to you all that the last couple of days have been much better for me, overall 
Not much of note gender-wise ~~using a fresh razor helps so much good lord~~ but yea, I've gotten to feel like me again and its very nice.
Thatβs great! π
it's bolshevikProglace now. 
small nsfw
if this doesn't make me eepy and/or horny i want a refund
I feel silly for feeling like this lmao but I'm honestly so happy that I just got a nice used car
My old one was almost as old as I am and is falling apart and just a total POS at this point
The new (old) car is like ten years old and nothing fancy really but it's well maintained and clean and in really good condition and I somehow got it for 4 figures and it feels like an unfathomable amazing luxury to my broke ass that's used to everything in my life being frustrating shitty bullshit
Driving it home I was amazed by how nice the interior is and how it smells nice instead of faintly moldy and I felt like, underdressed for how nice it feels to me? Like this is a car somebody with their shit together probably drives and I'm a weirdo mess but goddamn this is one of the best things that's happened to me in ages and I'm really happy about it
nothing fancy really but it's well maintained
This is the dream, I find my main issues with cars my family gets are underlining issues that could have been taken care of with just some diligence. I'm happy for you that you have something you can rely on and hope it lasts you a lifetime
Way past cool! (tysm, that was really nice)
Yeah, my parents and grandparents both had a bad habit of neglecting maintenance until something went wrong, and I'm gonna make myself be really diligent about keeping up on it with this
Everything under heaven is in utter chaos but my modest used car situation is excellent 
slept for 12 hours 
Envy you for this fr, only been able to sleep in 3 hours bursts lately. Part of it is my fault but part is stuff I gotta do or my body not letting me