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Final Fantasy XI

Final Fantasy XI is the eleventh numbered installment in the… Okay, you know what it is, I’m just going to tell you about one of the storylines!

During the Wings of the Goddess expansion, adventurers will be sent back in time to experience the events of the Crystal War, a cataclysmic event that is the foundation for conflicts of the modern-day timeline. Should an adventurer choose to serve the Kingdom of San d’Oria, they will be immersed in the story of the Young Griffons—a group of children who would see themselves knights, many of whom grow into prominent characters later in life.

Among the Young Griffons, the player will find Bistillot, a shy boy who doesn’t like to be seen. With his penchant for engineering, shy demeanor, and lack of combat potential, Bistillot prefers to spend his time inside of an orcish war machine that he was able to repair to working condition.

He is often seen before he is heard, with his signature phrase, “HAAAALLOOOOOOOOO” being used to hail the adventurer. Through the course of the story, Bistillot finds his way, even contributing to the war effort with his engineering skills.

However, when another member of the Young Griffons is kidnapped and taken to the present day, the adventurer must return to the present day and reunite with the Young Griffons’ present selves! The adventurer’s first contact in the present day is Bistillot. When the adventurer hears the signature “HAAAALLOOOOOOO,” Bistillot approaches the player, but what the player sees is… a woman?? She introduces herself as Bostilette, a “friend of Bistillot.”

After the rescue mission, Bostilette comes clean. She is, of course, the very same Bistillot who was a little boy twenty years earlier. She explains that she was very sick as a baby, so her parents gave her a boy’s name so that she would be stronger and survive the illness. Once she overcame the illness, she was comfortable to reclaim her name and gender. Well, that closes the book on that story, except… I’ve decided that’s bullshit!

I have unilaterally decided that Bostilette is trans, the sickness she had was dysphoria, she stayed in the orcish war machine because she was an egg, and I hope you all agree!

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[–] Wmill@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (2 children)

~~In a state of I wanna sleep but I don't wanna waste the rest of this day, I might just be building up this day so much~~ Screw it I was alive for another year cause enough to be happy

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[–] Starlet@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago
[–] Ambii@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (3 children)

::: spoiler internalized transphobia(?) Does anyone else feel like they can't fully come out until they can 'prove' themselves? Like for example I can't help but feel like I'm 'not allowed' to ask for my desired pronouns/name from friends or my partner or people in general if I don't first at least get rid of facial hair and at the bare minimum sound like I'm voice training.

[–] imogen_underscore@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

sorry you're going through this. maybe it is internalised transphobia, not sure. i encourage you to strive to overcome those feelings though, if you're in an environment where it's relatively materially safe to do so. for my part, i didn't really feel the "not allowed" bit, more just fear, but i think in hindsight one of the best things i did in very early transition was just commit hard. not trying to toot my own horn or whatever, presenting masc just became way too painful for me very fast. i came out to friends and family and started presenting fem before HRT, liberally used concealer before starting laser, and if it makes you feel any better i still haven't voice trained after a good few years lol. none of it should be seen as essential for your identity to be validated by others, and by yourself (which sounds like the part that might be closer to the issue). you are allowed!

[–] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 13 points 1 month ago

spoilerIf you go back over the months on the trans megathreads, that is a common feeling. It's not true. You have every right to be referred to using the pronouns that make you happy, whether you "sound like a boy" or have facial hair. Plenty of cis women do both and no one hesitates.

Ask for the pronouns, I bet when they get used around you you will feel VERY euphoric~

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[–] belligerentkitten@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago (3 children)

am i doomed to have a panic attack each time it rains heavily now? last time our house flooded and i guess that had a lasting effect on me. i had some anxiety meds n i'm okay and no flooding, just some roof leaks. but i don't think i'm gonna be able to relax or go back to sleep til its over

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[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago (1 children)

Why don’t people talk more about the misery of understimulation? Shit fucking sucks.

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[–] Hestia@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago

I hope the girl I like feels better by Saturday. We're planning on going up to redacted to pick pumpkins and have a girl's night carving them and I'm daydreaming just thinking about holding her hand and turning heads when they see two attactive girls walking around together and just... ughhhh hyperflush

[–] Tomboymoder@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago (9 children)

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They made him their king

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[–] MusicOwl@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago) (4 children)

Forming the Workers Soviet of TRANS Labor leslie-shining meow-knife-trans trans-hammer-sickle

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[–] Luna@hexbear.net 14 points 2 months ago

Estrogen stay winning

[–] rtstragedy@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago (1 children)

CW whiningate something bad, so i'm up like 3 hours early on the weekend just stressin' and feeling sick and being kinda sad/scared/etc. missed opportunity to watch the sunrise ig

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[–] 0x2640@hexbear.net 14 points 2 months ago (3 children)

factorio space age is out *wagwagwagwagwags* yey

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[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 14 points 2 months ago (1 children)

I think time’s slowing down a bit from breakneck pace? It’s not real but also evil. Fuck this neurotypical bs. Death to clocks and responsibilities.

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[–] Eco@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago (1 children)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh (obnoxious emote usage)party-blob party-blob party-blob party-blob party-blob party-blob party-blob party-blob party-blob party-blob

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[–] Eco@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

close up camera shot of a corkboard. a hand comes into frame and pins a card with someone's name on it, along with a piece of red string. slowly the camera zooms out, revealing that the red string has been arranged in a heart around the name

[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 14 points 2 months ago (2 children)

I (accidentally) cut myself pretty badly shaving (I was doing it wrong). I then did not take care of it properly, and now the problem is worse.

At some point I'll take care of myself properly, I hope.

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[–] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago (2 children)

If the health packs and pain killers and stim packs and health boosters in FPS style games were real, the standard FPS guy would probably have a failing kidney and liver and some other problems the amount they suck em back

That CANNOT be good for you. That is too many pain killers. I guess the in game alternative is dying to gunfire

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[–] LocalOaf@hexbear.net 14 points 2 months ago (4 children)

I have been Very Productive today (also check out my new extra pronouns! Wanted to try taking those babies out for a spin and seeing how they feel)

lady-doge

I wanted to take a nap when I got done doing everything but my brain wouldn't shut up so I drank a gay lil' energy drink and am gonna play vidya while the kitties are all napping

doggirl-sleep sleepi cuddle fidel-si jfk-gaming

"Five" kinda sucks but getting to mow down zombies with an AK-74u as Fidel inside the Pentagon is neat

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[–] Tommasi@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago (5 children)

Was gonna post a devious hot take on the current theory discussion, but realised i have no clue

just respect your fellow trans people or something idk, that's my hot take i-love-not-thinking

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[–] SorosFootSoldier@hexbear.net 14 points 2 months ago

FFXI Trans Mega, very cool.

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago (13 children)

Goooood morning megathread niko-yawn

I will continue posting about theory, I will never stop.

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[–] Thallo@hexbear.net 14 points 1 month ago (6 children)

Me every time I put on an outfit:

Wow, cool outfit!

Be cooler with tits, tho rust-darkness

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[–] QueerCommie@hexbear.net 13 points 1 month ago

Sorry for not posting too much. I finally figured out how to not believe the perception of urgency and importance that comes with my every thought. It’s kinda nice, but I find myself discarding comments because my perspective is irrelevant for better or worse.

[–] RION@hexbear.net 13 points 2 months ago (13 children)

now that I have my job and moved to an apartment the procedural barriers to actually doing something about my gender have all but eroded. Theoretically I could go to an informed consent place and get an HRT prescription. It's just really scary to consider doing that

I've found myself really consumed with doubt when I think about it, which has been less so now that I'm working full time and have less time to idly contemplate my identity. Truth be told, living as a guy feels... fine right now. Not great, but not the worst thing in the world? Shouldn't that not be the case?

I'm scared that I've been deluding myself for almost two years now. Cis people supposedly almost never think about their gender, it's said, but I'm unusual in a lot of other ways. What if I'm the odd cis person that does think about their gender? What if I'm tricking myself just so I get to feel "special" and not like a lame guy? Or what if these OCD symptoms I've been discovering with my therapist are behind all this, and it's just something I latched onto as an obsession that doesn't really mean anything about my identity after all?

I'm thinking about just going for DIY HRT so I don't have to show my face at a clinic if I turn out not to like it. That's giving me some hope, the idea that if a cis person takes the wrong hormones they feel like garbage. That way I know for sure, right?

Thinking about this gives so much anxiety, but I know that if it is something I want then every second spent waffling is another second wasted. My habitual over-analysis goes in circles. Makes me wish I just didn't have to exist so I didn't have to figure this out. I see my therapist tomorrow so I hope she has good advice for me

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