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Toyosatomimi no Miko is a character in the Touhou Project series introduced in its 13th installment, Ten Desires.
Miko was once Prince Shoutoku, a Japanese leader in the 600s known for promoting Buddhism and streamlining the Japanese government. In the Touhou lore, she was visited by Taoist hermit Seiga Kaku, who had heard about Miko’s longing for immortality. Seiga introduced her to Taoism, but she rejected it as a religion unfit for placating an entire country. She was intrigued by its promise of immortality, however, and privately converted to it, advocating for Buddhism to keep Japan stable. After drinking an “immortality elixir” (mercury sulfide), however, she was forced to let go of her body and become a supernatural hermit like Seiga, notably taking on the form of a woman, making her a canonically trans character ().
After convincing a hermit from a rival clan (Mononobe no Futo) to sleep without decaying, Miko followed in suit, waiting for a time where a Taoist Japan would revive her in search of guidance. However, Buddhist monks were able to keep her mausoleum sealed, and the legends surrounding her were slowly brushed off- which led to her transportation into Gensokyo, where the folklore of old is a reality of everyday life.
When she awoke in Gensokyo, it was right after Buddhist monk Byakuren Hijiri opened her own temple, however, leading to a surge of divine spirits across the realm, setting up the events of Ten Desires.
What look like headphones on her are canonically earmuffs- Shoutoku was allegedly able to discern between ten questions asked at once, an ability carried by Miko (although with her enhanced abilities, she can also analyze each person and determine their inner desires (thus the title of the game))- although it means her hearing is highly sensitive and has to be muffled to prevent pain.
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Also, depending on the kink there may be some pretty good books out there. Probably the most written about is shibari, but other kinks are written about too. But again, no one is going to have "the answer", and just cause some advice is in a book doesnt mean its good advice lol. Like I was reading a book on bondage aimed at beginners and it didnt mention leaving slack in the ties when tying them, which Imo is essential because as someone struggles the ties will only get tighter.spoilee
Heard ^^ yeah that bondage book had some good ties, but was lacking critical info imo.Part of why this is so hard to answer is that those will vary for everyone. Like for example some people are ok with permanent body modification, which makes me balk.
Also just like kinda the whole thing with kink (ime) is that its not typical, theres no normal, just varying shades of nonnormal.
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look like...sometimes i think that carrying a scar someone made into a visible spot would be so fucking hot, i guess that's why i'm into getting my neck sucked even though the black marks fade you can keep re-upping them
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Idk, for me at least i find it to be an act-in fantasy, not an act-out fantasy, yk?But being marked is really fun ^^
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it's....weird honestly. Like I already have self-inflicted scars that won't be going away but i kinda like them? dw im not going to start making more, but....stuff is just weird in my head about it all.::: spoiler cw self harm I know what you mean. My self harm scars arent all that upsetting, but its because they were made by me, and i think someone else doing that wouldnt be something I would feel good about.
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first of good that we're both in a better place nowi've always been into scars honestly, like there's this whole stigma about women having scars and i never understood it, scars can be so....hot? cute? i cant really place the feeling i get from them. They all tell stories and are marks of life no matter how shitty they may be.
in video games i always put facial scarring on all characters that i can (well i do unless that takes away makeup options for some fucking reason) and they just look so much hotter in my eyes.
ugh i dunno, maybe getting scarred by someone would be some poser shit or something also dont really want to fetishify someone for having scars either
I can't speak for anyone but myself
This kinda makes me tear up. A partner feeling that way about my scars would be amazing. It doesn't sound fetishizing to me.
And fwiw I don't think that'd be a poser thing at all, I can see how that'd be a bonding thing.
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aww, i'm sorry cutie, didnt mean to make you cry.There's just something about them, like living and being alive is messy and beautiful and the marks we get from it can be....so great. spoiler flirt would love to trace your scars too tbh :::
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It was a good cry :cat-trans:I'd love that :crush: I had completely forgotten how much I want someone to like my scars.
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Good cries are the best kindScars are just the words that are written on your empty tapestry of a body, nothing to be ashamed off, cutie.
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>.< Not ashamed, I just don't like them. Sometimes more then others. But yes, thank you <3spoiler
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I slip back sometimes. I was good for many years, and the a really stressful time came around and I was right back in it.
I have a different relationship with my different scars. Some remind me of good enjoyable times, others remind me of pretty bad experiences. Some are pretty and some arent. I have a few on my face that i really dislike both from the memories of getting them and because they feel just, idk, gross.
Idk, i dont think so. If its meaningful to you then thats kind of all that matters right?
I mean, theres a difference between finding something attractive and fetishizing it right? Idk, like i find stretch marks (especially on the thighs) to be really nice and attractive, but that doesnt make it fetishizing, its not some be all end all or reducing a person down to only that. If youre respectful and engage with someone in ways they are ok with, thats what matters right? (Idk, im probably not thinking through this well)
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I'm sorry about the back sliding, just remember that it will get better, and that we're here for you in what meaningful/meaningless form that may takeYeah, I guess so stuff is just complicated at times, welp nothing to it, but to ponder some more, if being trans has given me anything it's the ability to be introspective. Thanks for your insight.
spoiler flirt Also I'm sure your facial scars are beautiful like the rest of you would love to trace them with my fingers tbh :::
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ty <3 its specific triggers for me that are mostly addressed but sometimes get activated. I can get pretty emotionally disregulated :/
I was talking to a friend and she said something that, while im not sure i agree/align with her, did get me thinking. She said that she could respect chasers who were up front about being chasers and could enjoy getting together with them, and in fact preferred them to other specific trans people who had fetishized and objectified her.
spoiler flirt I uh um I buh da jdlsøf iwbfpqøaåfbwæ i just idk im not used to people finding those parts of me attractive. I do a lot to hide them; i have bangs in part to hide the ones on my face they arent very big and have mostly faded tho. I can talk about my scars if youd like :3
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i would love to hear about your scars! and any stories you're willing to share about them.spoiler
<3 theres a few across my body. The self harm ones make up most of them, and dont have many specific stories behind them. The ones on my face are from hitting my face against things. One is very very old, almost nonexistent anymore. I crashed my bike in gravel when i was young. It left some divots in my cheek. Another is from hitting my head on someones spiked jacket in the pit at a show when I was a teen. The most prominent is from when I hit my head on an open hatchback. That one stings in its memory; because i was seen as a guy, i was told to suck it up and that it wasnt a big deal. But I had blood gushing from my head, and really should have gone and gotten stitches. It still has jagged raised edges, though theyve softened considerably. I have a scar on my finger, from a non locking penknife flipping shut on me. It cut deep, thankfully it didnt cut the tendon, but you could see it. Its still white and reflective, but mostly blends in with the rest of my fingers. I have some scars on my shins, from slipping off the pedals of my bike growing up. The rest are from SH. The oldest of those look like strange exaggerated freckles. The youngest are still red and pocked. They mostly dot my arm. Theyre more visible in the winter, when my skin is whiter. I also have a ton of stretch marks. Silver rivers along my thighs.spoiler poetryposting Little lines, marks of flesh
Jagged, straight, cross and mesh
Or maybe one thats broad and long
Rough hewn edges whisper songs
And tell of times, events long past
Times of laughter, times aghast
A history, flesh-etched and wrought
A storybook that cant be bought
So touch and trace and read the book
And give them all a second look
To truly hear the story told
And bring it back into the fold :::
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wow your body is a beautiful tapestry filled with marks of (a rough) life. i would want to run my fingers over all of them, but the hatchback one most of all. maybe it would soothe the memory. mental scars are harder to touch though.kinda speechless to be honest, feels like you just handed me something precious
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::: spoiler vulnerable I want you to run your fingers over them, in that soothing manner
Ngl ive gotten pretty vulnerable with you
Not the hatchback one, but I still can hear the music from the show where i split myself on someones spiked jacket. It was a metsatöll and finntroll show (I used to listen to metal a lot (and pretty indiscriminately tbh 😬 i didnt vet bands like I do now (tho i havent looked at either of those bands in a long time. But its metal, so like theres a nonzero chance theyre reactionary nazi-adjacent mfs))) and i got hit in the head during metsatölls set.
Im so glad you like them
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thank you for sharing these thoughts
I'll try to be worthy of that trust I get how hard it can be, like I can share all kinds of stuff all day long, but getting into the deep dark of your own head is scary, even on here while being fairly anonymous.
Whatever scar you feel would need the most soothing, hun. ~for~ ~what~ ~it's~ ~worth~ ~both~ ~of~ ~those~ ~bands~ ~seem~ ~to~ ~be~ ~nazi~ ~free~. But look, your body is a beautiful book filled with stories and that is nothing to be ashamed off
it always amazes me when people can just, you know, write things. without having to puzzle over every word and create something pretty from nothing. I can barely articulate my own thoughts much less make something poetic
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Im sure you will be
Just to lay back, fingers on my forehead, tracing and tracing... youve got me blushing and feeling safe
youre so lovely, you know that?
Thats the trick, i do puzzle, ive just gotten very good at it over the years
I need to sleep now, so im logging off, ill be back tomorrow ^^
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thank you i try
artistic things are too far beyond my scope of brainpower sad to say
Sleep safe and sound, sweetheart I'll see you tomorrow
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Aww but art and creativity are a muscle! Dont confuse small muscles with a total lack of muscle <3
Aww ty i did, and now its time for
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good morning, enjoy the coffee.
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:3Coffee good... But i miss the löfbergs i used to get :/ now i have very mediocre coffee :(
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all coffee is too diluted for me nowadays. I used to eat handfuls of espresso beans while running longer distances. That's why I enjoy tea, because if it's going to be diluted, it might as well taste like strawberries or some such c:sorry about your coffee quality though, sucks to get worse after you're used to something better
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Eh, caffine is caffine lol. I just no longer drink it for tasteBut tea is so gooood! I have some rose petal black tea that is absolutely divine
I love some choclate covered espresso beans, theyre dangerous! Ill eat an entire bag in the blink of an eye.
What kind of teas are your favs? spoiler flirt Id love to make you tea in the morning, just watching out the window, drinking tea :::
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oh nooooooooooo, i bought a 2,5kg box of those when me and the brother were really into running marathons and longer, ate that shit like candy, wired to hell and back
There's so many good ones! I used to drink a lot of green tea, but these days I've gone fully into black tea. Used to like chai a lot, but it's bit too christmassy to drink all the time, I have some loose black tea that tastes like liquorice and one that tastes like like rum with creamy aftertaste Irish Morning i think it's called they're so gooooood i brew a 1,5litre pot daily unless i'm too busy and forget.
That rose petal one sounds amazing though, any other kinds you like?
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I love most teas tbh. Black tea is my fav, everything from classic pg tips to fancy lapsang suchong (bbq tea lol). There was this incredible "crem de la earl gray" that had blue cornflowers in it and was so pretty and smooth and tasty i really like sweet chai when im at a cafe or something, its just a nice little treat :3
I was never super into green tea tho. Like ive had green tea thats good, but it never was like "omg i love this".
I need these in my life, desperately! I love liquorice, and irish breakfast teas are just delish :) but i just make my tea in the cup. i want a big teapot but dont have space for it in my apartments kitchen
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excuse me???
i was one of those freaks who drank plain green tea, it's an...acquired taste, takes a while to start tasting anything besides grass
i bought this one from ikea, and it's just really great, but yeah this stuff takes it's space. although you could boil the water on the stove if you don't have space for a dedicated kettle.
::: spoiler spoiler Yeah the issue is that we're 5 people sharing a tiny kitchen, we just dont have space for stuff
lapsang suchong smells like bbq imo, its really tasty black tea.
Thats ok, i like freaky people with strange taste :3 Theres a tea house around here thats really sweet (if often a bit busy)
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oof that sucks, but atleast you have the tea house
hmm my go to shop has this, might have to give it a go. Thank you
~well~ ~uhh~ ~i~ ~do~ ~have~ ~some~ ~weird~ ~niche~ ~tastes~ ~at~ ~times~
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its so tasty :3
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Tell me about them cutie! :::
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oh uhh i refuse to use spotify or any music platform so i scavenge the internet for flac quality albums which i put on my decade old hdd for safekeepingi like to read tarot when the mood strikes me
i have a collection of cat ears, with different colour combinations and beautiful thigh high socks that look like kitten paws
i love keffiyehs and i try to incorporate them into all my outfits
i think i'm collecting plushies at this point, can't leave those lovelies into their shop prisons
i used to run ultra marathons before my achilles tendons decided to both get fucked beyond what rest can fix
and i love reading all the gay slop the internet is willing to give me
spoiler flirt how about you, sweetheart? anything interesting on the horizon? :::
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I think it depends on the context. I carry lots of scars made by other people but from abuse or were made out of anger or the result of people wanting to hurt me a great deal .I have enough that would doxx me because they are unique so won't go into detail. I have a large one on my hand and face made by an abusive parent. I've ones on my head from being hit with a brick and glass ashtray, those are hard to see with my hair. I have scars from someone who tore my skin on my inner arms.
I have a faded sleeve where I did some of my own too but I have a strange fondness for those but it's kind of from a bad place but I liked those too for various reasons
I've always enjoyed getting bitten and having love bites etc and I enjoy the pain. Piercing is a fun one but I dunno I like marks when it comes from a safe and good place despite most of mine being from hatred and I hide some of those I'm most self conscious of with makeup.
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Yeah, i can understand why you'd feel those are bad, because of the connecting stories, but they can still be beautiful to an outside observer. They tell of a life lived, and that's what being a human is all about (i've been told, havent felt suicidal in a while, so i think i have to start believing it too)spoiler
I think scars on other people are beautiful too so there you go ^^You should and glad you haven't felt like that too, I've been there too.
Sorry i responded in my other comment before this got deleted. I deleted that one now to prevent inferrence of the content of your top level comment. Happy to talk about this stuff if you want to ^^
I undeleted ^^
I completely understand the confidence crash i have them all the time