that I seriously believed that evil simply did not exist, and the closest thing to evil was just ignorance.
Yeah I believed essentially this for a long time. Like I'm pretty sure bullshit like "Hitler thought he was doing the right thing" came out of my mouth at some point.
I mean to some extent I still struggle with it. I have a hard time believing that "regular people" that I meet and can interact with can just be straight up evil. I still can only feel that way about historical figures and politicans and famous sex pests (and even then, only the worst ones) and such. I prefer to believe people are misguided in most cases. My mind tends to relate to why people think that way. And I mean, I am a stubborn rehabilitation and restoration guy when it comes to justice to this day, but now thats somewhat curtailed by the knowledge that some people cant be rehabilated, its just better to stick to it as a policy for a state.
That point about tear gas is good though.
No yeah I appreciate that. I wasnt sure anyone else could relate.