Maybe I will just focus on me. That feels like an admission that the idea of helping one another is doomed. That I am not worthy of help. That I cannot learn how to ask. But if I'm really supposed to prioritize myself, yeah, it feels like I'm supposed to say screw you to everyone else. Nobody is like, talking me through the nuances there.

Asking for help literally feels like a fucking challenge. It's like, "Wendy, you have to say your words perfectly otherwise you won't get help or you will get help in a way you don't want and it won't go well and it'll be worse than not asking." I have to ask The Perfect Questions in order to get the understanding I need in order to communicate my points. Like, it's just another thing I need to do perfectly otherwise I feel terrible and hate myself.

It's really a thing of like, wow, I'm dead to you, or you must've all died, because I never could've imagined us falling out of touch. I don't know what we are if not dead to one another. And that's not because I hate these people or something. I just don't understand what happened.

yknow changing my outfit every time i lost in mahjong soul was getting me a great winning record but it is just super not working this morning ._.

new york and london should go a step farther and just ban cars from central london and manhattan

frankly just ban cars from mayfair, kensington, and chelsea because that would piss off the rich the most

How many here know of Butterfly Soup (the games)?

So, previously I put out feelers for a super-specific idea for a TTRPG campaign and didn't get particular traction. That's okay.

I want to put out more general feelers for a tracha tabletop roleplaying game thing. For opsec and accessibility purposes, I am still thinking scheduled synchronous text chat with matrix chat. For the game system, would rule out D&D 5e or other neo-trad game, but would otherwise be open. My current preferences for running games leans towards OSR/NSR games, but I still enjoy more narrative games as well (PbtA, FitD, etc...).