I HATE having things I want to say, thoughts I want to share, but knowing I can't. Inappropriate to share here, therapist will try and send me to inpatient. Also just like, fuck him. Last session he brought up for the fucking hundredth time he's worried I'm "being influenced" and "going with the flow". Dipshit. Because I guess that's what people with avpd do. Honestly I should just never mention my diagnosises to anyone again if they're going to be used against me like that.
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I GOT MY EARS PIERCED :lets-fucking-go: :lets-fucking-go: :lets-fucking-go:
Need to get used to my new name. Terrible.
Today marks a full year since
(cw: transphobia, abuse)
my parents kicked me out for starting HRT.
Gonna probably try to treat myself a bit once my chores are done to see if that helps any. Got nicer food than usual and my roommate is out so I can take a nice long bath. Might also finally put in that order for a pair of custom sized lolita shoes.
dysphoria
some days a trans girl just has to wake up and compare herself to a completely unreasonable body standard for 98% of cis women, let alone a newish on HRT trans woman
My condolences to all trans Americans because of the next four years. 🫂
guns
Honestly think the "queer/trans people should get fucking strapped" memes and post have more to do with the American fetishization of guns than it does actual safety.
The fact that I've had an account on this website for approx. 7 months is baffling to me. I remember having too much anxiety to even create an account on here. I remember thinking I was cis. It feels so long ago, yet so recent, at the same time.
Here's another appreciation post for you all. I genuinely have no idea where I would be or what I would think without you all. I love my trans comrades :trans-heart:
crying heavily there's a damn cheeto... sniffle in the white house...
I continue to be queer in my dreams recently.
It is a neat development. Something must have shifted within my subconscious ✨
Or one of you freaks used gay magic on me
We're like in a secret club waiting for the the other trans mega posters to find us hee hee hee
I get why we have rule 2 here but god damn would i love to post some pictures of how cute and pretty i feel
Visited parents with my brother and after we got back to our place, he was like "mom complimented me on my tit growth*. Did she do the same for yours?"
*as growing chest muscles from working out. He always talks about working out his chest as getting bigger tits.
Had the opportunity to go clothes shopping at a new mall yesterday!
dysphoria
Unfortunately it followed the typical structure of: 1. trying on clothes at one store 2. failing and having a small dysphoric breakdown 3. spending the rest of the afternoon in a stupor and not getting anything
im actually jk rowling and everything ive been doing has been a deep cover op
Don't get old
spoiler
When I reflect on it was cute when I flipped out that being old is finding a gray body hair, nah fam its when your body comes down with the violence on multiple fronts. Like hemorrhoid burst and kidney stone passing in the same day (today was that day), and all those remedies people say work? Wistful thinking until it happens.
jams phone into pocket and it only fits halfway "Damn, right. Girl jeans""
current t girl problem that's been slowly developing for me: my new wardrobe has too many fucking knits and i have no drying rack. how do i dry all my knits flat without stretching them now? other than the obvious solution of "just buy a drying rack"
Is it weird to have a crush on someone you only know from the internet
Is it weird to have “crushes” when you’re over 30? 🤔
sadposting, relationship yearning
Terrified of personal intimacy and being vulnerable
Desperately touch starved and want to be held and lovingly cuddled for hours
this pseudo-hermit shit sucks but I'm so afraid of putting myself out there looking a relationship and don't feel up to it with where I'm at in my life right now
I want a partner to love me so bad though, I'm so lonely and have virtually zero positive human relationships irl currently
I love my cats so much but people need other people sometimes and I don't have anyone and my heart hurts
It keeps me up at night sometimes just ruminating about every relationship I've screwed up and what could've been
I can be cruel to myself sometimes but deep down I do think I'm a decent person with a lot of love to give and think there must be someone out there who'd mesh with my weirdo queer self perfectly but I have no clue how I'm ever gonna meet them with where I'm at now
Oafs need some romance sometimes too
why do I have so much rizz
I hardly even use it wtf, that's not fair to rizzless people
fuck it ordering some E finally. who knows what's coming. although if the FDA gets nuked might end up being easier to get who knows
then i'll stare at this bottle before i finally do some self-tests. thinking of microdosing to start and see where it takes me.
weird being a trans-butch i am going to have to find where the masc ends and the femme starts
Had to stop watching a trashy Netflix dating show because one of the challenges was naming countries on a map and I cannot withstand that level of ignorance and cringe on that topic.
Estrogen has made me substantially more emotional but it seems like I bounce back from things alot quicker than in the past. I don't ruminate on things as much because my baseline emotional state is higher.
For me, being on E was the emotional equivalent of having really bad eyesight and then getting glasses for the first time. Now I had emotions and I understood my emotions, I could give them names and process them.
Before it was all just baseline okay, or anger. And that was about it. Sure I cry more now but I can also deal with my emotions rather than, like you, just having them boil in the background
the traa bureaucracy must grow to meet the demands of the ever expanding traa bureaucracy
I wish I could be a cat for a day that'd be cool
Voice training and realizing that I have amazing control of the muscles I need already due to years of singing. The thing is... it's with singing. I can't for the life of me control them while speaking (yet). I actually got into it on the way to work this morning, and was able to speak with a pretty good fem voice, but on the way back I just couldn't get it for the whole commute.
I will master this, I will. Am I, a self-described vocalist, really going to let speaking (vocals) get the best of me? NO
spoiler
How am I supposed to mindlessly watch videos on YouTube when they have cis woman in them taunting me with what I can never have and what I can never be!?
Comrade, would you please spoiler posts like these? Thank you.
In my restless dreams, I see that place... Hexbear.
So I just finished my second playthrough of silent hill 2 remake, and now I'm having dreams where my wife is sick and dying, so I think it's time to play something else
INSIDE OF YOU THERE ARE TWO WOLVES
ONE SAYS WE NEED TO KEEP TRANS WOMEN OUT OF SPORTS BECAUSE WOMEN'S SPORTS ARE SACROSANCT
THE OTHER LOVES TO USE WOMEN'S SPORTS AS A PUNCH LINE
YOU ARE AN IRREDEEMABLE SHITBAG