Melbourne

Miss Murderface

So the rash is subsiding through my using cortisone cream and calmoseptine😃 My test results are in, so I can see my doctor on Thursday 😃One of my kids are going to school today 😀 Mr P has an appointment at Peter Mac, so I have to pick her up from school.

My sister's asked me to help her move some stuff out of her storage unit and I'm happy to help and I will shut up and do as I'm told and i will not lose my temper and throw something at her and I will not question her even though she does things the wrong way and I will pray.

Lol just woke up from a stupid nightmare in which my LL sent me a message on reddit and she was dumb enough to have not used a burner account; she was saying all kinds of horrible things about me on landlord subs (with people goading her on) but also complaining about burnout and her partner stressing her out. I started screenshotting everything but the anxiety eventually woke me up. I really can't wait to put her in the past (and someday put all landlords in the past...)

Things I'm particularly grateful for today:

• a job where I feel safe and supported, wanted and not alone
• a good friend I could call and mutually share what's troubling us, someone who totally understands anxiety and is honest and genuinely shows up when asked
• having the motivation to cook from scratch and relieve some of the bodily anxiety

Yep, it's another big batch of Hoppin' John tonight, healthy, cheap and delicious. I'm going to eat dinner in bed now with the OMITB finale on. I'm going to be OK...

Pumpkins are carved. Hopefully they last till Thursday cause we've got no time to do them between now and then.

Friendly reminder if you already put the kettle on: Dont forget to pour your tea/take the teabag out/leave the tea on the bench.

New workplace takes absences seriously. Needed med cert for my single day off (needed for one day off if absence is Monday or Friday). Also had a "RTW" chat with manager who asked why I was off, am I okay now, any ongoing issue, anything they can do to help, etc. Quite invasive and definitely serves to dissuade me from future sick leave where it's not absolutely needed - which I suppose is why they do it.

comPOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOST

giant bed dug out, time to fill it with rotting veggies and compost soil and half rotted wood and old shredded mulch and worms hit and chicken poop and humus plus and all sorts of wonderful things so I can stuff my banananananna plant in

I want to go to bed, put the doona over my head and pretend I'm somewhere else

I fall in love with every broken hearted,
Black-haired singer, poet, artist,
I'll never be the muse that inspires that rush,
Of a cascading all-consuming star crossed crush,
I'll just remain a stereotypical poetic trope;
A smoker, a toker, a poet without hope.

Good night everyone. Think a happy thought when you close your eyes and have sweet dreams 😘

Sky pretty. Little wisps of pink and gold - lovely.

Bath, cat brushies, some music and bed.

Goodnight everyone, and here's to a better day tomorrow ❤️

Today was one of those "if everyone is an asshole, you're the asshole" kind of days.

I'm glad I realised.

I keep listening to podcasts to help me fall asleep. Then I wake up in the middle of the night with an earbud either in my ear or underneath me. Good times!

I had a nice morning getting some weeding done in the front yard - having the cloud cover and not having to work in full sun was definitely nice.

I have quite a few patches of self-seeded poppies coming up which is nice, they have been flowering solidly for months and the red works really well with the primarily blue/purple flowers I have in the garden. They work particulalry well with a volunteer borage that is in full flower at the moment too.

When you get HDs on last semesters units

Cut lots of hair off, hair springs up and is curly and unruly again , argh . Still better than it was tho.

also, it was the gummy vitamins that were def making me feel weird and tingly, they are loaded with sulfites 😠

New glasses day. It will be nice to not have a perpetual headache!

On the ride home on Sunday we also saw an echidna. It was climbing into a flower bed next to the footpath, not even anywhere native looking. Another bonus for bike commuting

Valaris 107 is already leaving the bay, I wish I hadn’t come into the office for this afternoon. I find them so fascinating (on a purely what the fuck can humans build?! kinda way) and always want to get as close as I can, but it’s a bit difficult. I figured watching it go through the heads would be the best way.