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When I decided to host the mega again a bit ago, I had no idea what to make it about (of course). So it fell between two topics: a post on the importance of sleep, or a post on just how much I love Fire Emblem: The Sacred Echoes. Well, I felt like the importance of sleep was well-known, and could always wait for the next time I host a mega. I wanted to make sure I hit the Sacred Echoes iron while it's hot, because I've almost finished my play through at this point, and it might genuinely be one of the best games I have ever played.

Sacred Echoes feels so polished, considering it's a fan-made romhack of Sacred Stones, with the goal of bringing the 3DS game, Shadows of Valentia (SoV), to the GBA. Everything about the game aesthetically is very well-done, from the portraits, to the battle sprites, and literally anything else that could be thought of about a game. This includes new character writing, which helps the game in areas where Shadows of Valentia was a little, well, off. That's what I want to go over first, and although I've made a post before, I had only played a little bit of the game. Being at the end, I've noticed more things, and grown to appreciate this game even more than I already did.

Let's start off with the relevant (and interesting) bits: Sacred Echoes actually does a really good job at representing a variety of backgrounds, while also being diverse in a way that doesn't feel like it's simply to have a token character. This game doesn't suffer from the cracker curse, for example. Although most of the characters are white, there is more than one person of color (congratulations) . In terms of LGBTQ+ representation, it's even better. There are many gay/lesbian characters, whose sexuality actually plays a role in the plot and how they interact with others. There's also an aroace character, Lukas, who goes through a whole arc of self-discovery in his support conversations (support Python). It's good stuff, and not things I would normally expect from a Fire Emblem game. I hesitate to bring up the (possibly) only trans character in the game, Jesse. HOLD ON, NO HESITATION AT ALL! I just decided to do more research, and I wasn't just projecting. He is 100% trans, and it's in supports, and it's relevant to his plot and backstory, so it's just like the rest of them, thank goodness, I was worried he was a token. So yeah, support Clive and Jesse. Good stuff, and good luck getting to the end of the game so they can actually meet, one fights for Alm and the other for Celica...

This is Jesse

Here's some dialogue between Clive and Jesse, in the context of a will:

Clive: Only the following will be yours - your mother's wardrobe, her jewelry box, and all corresponding contents.

Jesse: Urgh. Even from halfway in the grave he's trying to tell me what to wear. So yeah, he's still the same tyrant he always was. Hasn't changed a bit.

In terms of character background, it's more diverse than one would think, and it addresses the issue of feudal class. Not all of the characters are nobles, and one of the main characters is a commoner from a random village. The plot regularly deals with the fact that nobles and commoners do not get along. However, it does not try to redeem most nobles. If they aren't proving themselves with their actions, they're probably shitty. Even if they are supposedly "one of the good ones", there's usually some underlying prejudice that comes out when you might not expect it. I love it so much, and I am extremely impressed that the plot doesn't try to redeem nobility as a whole, but rather allows the noble characters within the cast to have character development that feels less like justification and more like re-education.

Pictured is the class traitor Lukas absolutely destroying Fernand

For other details about the story, I'll link my original post. I don't want to drag this on too long, and I mention most of the improvements there. It also includes where to find the patch for the game, and how to play the game for yourself. If you enjoy SRPGs, or are new to the genre, I recommend this game. It has an easy mode for the newbies, and hard mode for those of us who hate ourselves (/s), and a normal mode for everything in-between niko-happy

The Echoes cast is amazing, and I love how they interact with each other and the world. Each character stands out, and they feel unique in their relationships with the other characters. Even characters that suffer in SoV, like Faye and the Masked Knight (has a name but it's spoilers), benefit from the Sacred Echoes writing, making them actually enjoyable characters. The villains of the game are also great. I don't want to go too deep, because I don't want to spoil too much, but they aren't just pure evil, and for that I applaud the SoV writers. Berkut is probably the highlight of the game, being the heir to the throne of the empire. I am once again asking you to play the game, because IT IS SO GREAT, and I would not have expected these good of villains to pair with Alm and Celica, as well as their armies.

Pictured is the Masked Knight being a gay little guy. The other guy (Saber) is threatening his life...

Everything about the game design is also amazing. It's GBA Fire Emblem, so the animations are peak and the pixel art is stellar. The maps are improved from the original SoV maps, and they are definetly much better, and much less repetitive. Classes in the game are fun in how they work, each character being able to promote 2-3 times. Mages also work really uniquely and well in this game, with spells costing HP to cast. They learn spells as they level up, rather than by purchasing tomes, which makes for (in my opinion), better gameplay. Sacred Echoes also adds the GBA weapon and magic triangles!

All in all, Sacred Echoes is a great game, and even if you never ending up playing it, you now know of its existence. It stands out as a great romhack, as well as a great Fire Emblem game, AND it has the gay. Can it really get better than that?

If you want my original (and more in-depth) analysis, check out my original post. It's mostly about what Sacred Echoes improves upon the original Shadows of Valentia.

Hope you enjoyed my little nerd-out session, and have a good week everyone! niko-dance

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[–] LocalOaf@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago (8 children)

VERY long orientation/sexuality confusion post reflecting on stuff and trying to work out some identity feels bugging me

Known I've been bi/pan since before first puberty, initially in a repressed dreadful "oh no, I'm kinda gay!" self conflicted way ohnoes

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Then in teens in a sicko-zoomeryes-hahaha-yes-l "aw hell yeah, I'm kinda gay" sort of way

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Then in twenties in a post-trans-hatch β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Žβ€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž β€Ž sicko-femyes-hahaha-yes-l "aw hell yeah, I'm kinda a lesbian" kinda way

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Now I'm like "shit, am I a romantic lesbian but straight-ish pansexual?" biblically-accurate-kitty hexbear-pan and am not really sure what to make of that

I feel like in some of the sexuality changes were all part of coming to terms with not being cis, then various amounts of self acceptance increases and transition steps opening up different aspects of whatever my underlying attractions were but it still feels a bit confusing cat-confused

I wouldn't have had the language or self awareness for it at the time, but looking back now I feel like my gender as a prepubescent kid was pretty much agender and didn't really internally make a distinction of gendered social norms of homosociality for platonic friendships and heteronormative crushes, it was all kind of the same thing. I got along with girls more in terms of communication style as friends and had some crushes on them too, but had the majority of my friends be boys because a lot of the girls treated me different than they treated one another and I was intuitively aware that I was being expected to try to "perform" normal boy-ness even though I wasn't exactly thrilled about all of it.

By my early teens, I was aware that I was definitely bi, and thought at first that having any attraction to boys as a "boy" must mean I'm actually completely gay, and knew a lot of boys at that age then were really homophobic, so I tried being Normal Teen and going on dates with girls a couple times. I actually did like some of those awkward early teens relationships but part of me had the feeling that it was The Right Thing To Do in order to Beat The Allegations, and spending more time with Teen Relationship GF and her friends started making me more aware of Gender and how I Was Not Lovin' Itℒ️ and kinda wished I could change it.

Flash forward to late teens, coming to grips with being pan and how I felt that fit me best as a label, then starting to unpack my gender identity, at first as "hey I'm a girl lol" and trying to perform binary feminity, then realizing that was getting warmer than "kinda fruity boy" but still wasn't quite right, then landing on enby and gettin' a lil' weird with it. smug-aura-mocks-me

Anyway, now I feel odd about whether or not I could end up in a serious romantic relationship with a man or not, and/or whether I'm physically compatible sexually with queer cis women or not.

spoiler orientation, dysphoria about sexuality I haven't had a long-term BF before, and idk if dating a guy and a masc-er than me enby that both didn't quite work out soured me on a more masculine partner as a romantic prospect in the future or not. Sexually, I'm into it, but interpersonally I just feel a lot more comfortable being emotionally vulnerable and comfortable with women/femme-ish enbies. Even pretty queeny queer guys I've been with still do some guy shit that puts me off of pursuing more serious relationships sometimes.

With women/femmes, I feel safer emotionally and like cutesy romantic bullshit with them, but sexually feel uneasy that they don't really see me as myself and are just entertaining my identity to be nice. I can be really attracted to someone, and part of me is still always negatively comparing myself to her/them subconsciously and making myself sad, or fretting that they're internally trying to figure out "how male I am really" and that either being something they're apprehensive of in a more lesbian way or something they're more into In a straighter way and are keeping close to the chest to not offend or upset me. I know that kinda shit is probably almost entirely in my head and I should communicate more and trust people when they tell me they like me, but my brain is great at screaming at its own ass. galaxy-brain screm-pretty

tl;dr

-find feminine ppl beautiful and love doing cutesy couple romantic shit and talking with them about feelings and stuff but get sad comparing myself with them and feel uncomfortable if I'm ever implicitly expected to be more masculine than I really am sexually. I don't want to "be the guy" in the bedroom ever, and my sexuality towards women can make me dysphoric.

-find (some) masculine people very attractive and find intimacy with them gender validation a lot of the time when it's like "them, definitely masculine and naturally comfortable with that being into me, who is clearly Not That" and that kinda being enough sometimes, but finding them lacking in interpersonal emotional range or their interiority? Idk

I have come here to write a long gay ass post and chew bubblegum, and I'm all out of bubblegum

glasses-off

Thanks for coming to my TedTalk :::

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[–] gaystyleJoker@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago

gonna go to a bunch of dancing stuff tomorrow 😳 i am scared but i want to be supportive

[–] Tommasi@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago

Hate when I see a fancy looking dress online and it's like 20$ and I know it will feel and probably look super cheap, but what if...

[–] ZoomeristLeninist@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago

i have a primary care doc for the first time in 5 years! hes well known around here for gender affirming care. diy E was easy but im gonna go legit for prog and maybe bica. i started hrt a few months ago so he ordered my first hormone panel. also ive been exercising and eating better! feeling rlly good abt life rn :)

[–] Eco@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago (2 children)

my back really really hurts ouwwww

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[–] Wake@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago (6 children)

I spilled coffee on my retroid and now the left joystick squeaks when I use it. Truly this is the peak of human suffering. walter-breakdown

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[–] TerminalEncounter@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago (1 children)

I don't think I've had a proper puppy love style crush in a long time, I've played around in the crush zone but I can let it go so easily in a way I couldn't when I was like 16 to 20 - I honestly feel bad about how easy it is for me to discard feelings, I couldn't before. I haven't had someone occupy my mind in that way for so long. It's not like being (SOME NUMBER OF YEARS) older than 25 means you can't get in that mind state, maybe just the grind of life and hurt makes someone less able to really fall into that kind of optimism and hope and vulnerability again.

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[–] 0x2640@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) (1 children)

CW: dysphoria, depression, self hatred

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[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago (1 children)

Goodnight mega niko-sleep I will see you all tomorrow kirby-wave

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[–] Eco@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago (2 children)

brevity is the soul of fucking losers. suck on my nine hour video essay, cucks

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[–] BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago (1 children)

What if your brain tried to have thoughts but you just turned the music up louder? (my headphones are as loud as they go and I need to turn them down)

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[–] KrupskayaPraxis@lemmygrad.ml 11 points 3 months ago (5 children)

It's getting too cold for my gender affirming clothes. Does anybody know any good feminine fall clothes

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[–] Tommasi@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago

The amount of times I put on a sweater and thought it's pretty thick, so i won't need to wear a bra under it, only to take a glance in the mirror and realise I do in fact need to wear a bra under it. It's annoying, but gives me a little dopamine hit at the same time.

[–] naom3@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago

Nursing a probably unrequited crush is still not going great :yea:

[–] EstraDoll@hexbear.net 11 points 3 months ago (1 children)

god, what's the opposite of an "eepy princess" trans femme? i'm sleeping like 6 hours/day at most and it's not good sleep either. i cannot fucking sleep anymore and no amount of melatonin is really seeming to help for longer than 2 hours this fucking sucks limmy-awake

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[–] EstraDoll@hexbear.net 10 points 3 months ago

oooh, girl pants are so stretchy, these are nice :)

[–] GayTuckerCarlson@hexbear.net 10 points 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) (2 children)

surgeryWhat if you were in a car wreck with your best bud and to save their life their head had to be sown on to your body and you became gay buddy cops solving mysteries out of a van with a dog but its not Scooby Doo because that's still under heavy copywrite protection

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[–] Anvil_Lavigne@hexbear.net 10 points 3 months ago (1 children)

dysphoria related goofiness

i was peeing standing up for once & the stream hit a wasp nest

never again


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[–] Luna@hexbear.net 10 points 3 months ago

HE SAID THE THING!!!

Also have to admire the work on his portrait. Berkut goes from being normal to looking like this when he says UNCLE!!!

[–] ashinadash@hexbear.net 10 points 3 months ago* (last edited 3 months ago) (39 children)

cw CLASSIC FICTIONAL TRANSPHOBIA SHITAs a kid I read Breakfast of Champions, and maybe most people hear Vonnegut's name and think of the Dresden bit from Slaughterhouse V. Me, I think of the HARRY WAS A TRANSVESTITE bit from Breakfast of Champions. I think I knew then that it would be possible, even likely, to encounter random pitfalls like that anywhere in popular media.

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