had a lowkey night playing deadlock and drinking water
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freaking out about the beach boys again. Van Dyke Parks is such a good lyricist it's wild. read this shit real quick
A diamond necklace played the pawn
Hand in hand some drummed along, oh
To a handsome mannered baton
(Bygone, bygone)
A blind class aristocracy
Back through the opera glass you see
The pit and the pendulum drawn
(Bygone, bygone)
columnated ruins domino
canvas the town and brush the backdrop
are you sleeping, Brother John?
like they really made ozymandias about being in the beach boys
morbid
watching a bunch of old PSAs after thinking about one. ofc this inevitably leads to nuclear war ones from the 80s. and damn, I'd so much rather die in the nuclear blast than the agonising death of irradiation and the bleak post nuclear world. it will not in fact be a whacky world with ghouls, robots, and LARPing legionaries
Okay, look, right, I know Fallout 1's interface is a steampunk artdeco clusterfuck, but it's entirely mouse driven and the game is perfect ok. Yes the click & drag logic is absurd, yes pixel hunting for the Colt Rangemaster sucks, but a nuclear age CRPG with a system inspired by GURPS and structure inspired by JRPGs (overworld map w/random encounters -> town maps with NPCs and quests) is absolutely awesome. The combat never stops being fun in a brutal, pitch black kind of way, and the ability for the story to unfurl with whichever portions of it you find first or quests you choose to do is awesome. Fallout 1 is a top five banger okay, and I will not hear slander about it because Interplay dorks in 1997 made a messy wessy of the buttons at 640x480!!!!
nsfw, better mood today
About to hop in the shower pre-laser so my asshole doesn't smell.
Glad I took the time to shave everything yesterday. Gf helped with the hard to reach bits.
Looking forward to having less ass and crotch hair. And a bit anxious as this is my first laser session.
spoiler
I hate asshole hair so much and my IPL says don't use on asshole
Itβs not fun having to just sit around waiting for your epilator to charge because it died halfway through.
I ate a gabapentin recently :3
it would be cool to not have occasional collapses of confidence where anxiety eats me and I have to disappear, I hope this will help.
Iβm happy with how I look, but why do I still gotta get he/himed. I get why, but itβs annoying.
I lost my vestigial tail in 'nam
My having left for three weeks recently also came with the fun fact that I donβt think I know a lot of people here now. We had one hell of an influx of new posters in the past couple months and thatβs pretty damn great. Now I canβt keep up with the mega anymore. Especially since Iβve been horribly busy as well.
Working on posting really hard (an unrestrained torrent of stupid bullshit)
voice dysphoria, probably brainworms too tbh
Thinking about my voice just gives me the worst vibes ever. I feel bitter, I feel sad, I feel ruined. I feel resentful and guilty for feeling that way. I knew when my voice started changing I didn't like it, but always hoped I'd grow to like it. That hasn't happened and never will. I have to painstakingly change it to sound okay. Because of how my dysphoria is and all the layers to it I really don't see me ever getting a truly good voice.
I feel numb, in a sad kinda way. spoiler eating issues I'm not going to pro ana post because its bad (I honestly don't really know why what I'm doing is bad but whatever) and I don't want to get banned. But I have eaten one meal and two cookies in the last 36 hours. Next meal is in four hours. My pain is numbed. :::
internalized transphobia
:agony-shivering: I hate randomly thinking of myself as [bad language] holy shit. It's awful, it makes me feel awful, I don't think of anyone else that why so whyyy brain. I stop myself every time and remind myself it's bad, but idk. It still gets me a little bit.
grumbling about shit
so, I said earlier we're close to a formal offer on one place. but one of the big reasons I even picked that place was how close it is to commute for my wife, aaaand now she's going on about wanting a new job in the city to use her degree. which like ok, I get that and it is a good idea outside of this situation; it's just also we're supposed to be moving soon and have a deadline to get shit sorted out, why add more chaos and unknowns to a situation that needs bedrocks?
I don't fault her for wanting to leave her job, but the gripes really are the kinda shit you get at every job 'the management couldn't run a tap' 'this one particular manager is annoying' 'this guy grinds my gears sometimes' that kinda stuff. it's her first job so like I am being supportive with these issues she has, but also easing her into this really is what it's like fucking everywhere you work, and there's a grass is greener on the other side mentality to saying fuck this place I'll go somewhere else. I will 100% support her in the search for a new job, and in terms of getting into the flow of a new workplace, I love her and will always do whatever I can to support that. it's just... do we need that right now with a 2 month deadline over us? I'm no angry with her, more just confused and mildly exhausted with the whole process
I found another 20 places to send off applications too with much better general train access. it's just, this search has been gruling, we're like 90% of the way there on this one place, and now that might be up in the air not due to landlords or estate agents this time. blegh
I opened a big vacuum sealed bag of puffed rice and it tasted funny and i had to put sugar on it :(
I am so happy I'm actually tearing up a little bit. Being trans rocks, so excited to keep going. And to think I've barely started! So many things to try and love!
Skipping past a baddie and running into a screen door.