What? Why? I used to do that all the time. You cut it up, and take it with you. Like they said, it saves dishes. Even when I was a teenager at my friend's house, we'd make a frozen pizza, take it out onto a cutting board, then just stand around and eat it off the board. Good memories.
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Cpa worked good but made me depressed and suicidal so i switched. Spiro worked fine but smells weird and you should avoid potassium iirc. Never took bica before i went on monotherapy.
Drink more water if you have to continue being an alcoholic. For every beer or "drink"'s worth of alcohol, try to drink like 8oz of plain water. You'll be drunk as a fish and you can still enjoy your depression shakes, but also hydrated so your skin won't be as shit, your brain won't be as shriveled, and you'll smell less bad. So if you want to down a fifth or something stupid, you have to mix it with 135oz of water to drink it. A lot of people's health problems and age rates are from UV damage, malnourishment, and dehydration, and alcohol is a diuretic.
I know it's kind of a chicken/egg sitch, but you should do everything you can to chase happiness and know yourself better before you expire. I think you deciding to transition is proof that you're already doing that and you should believe in yourself rather than berate yourself for somebody else's malice and choice to steal. I believe in you and know you can do it. Keep going, onwards and upwards.
Also, a global pandemic and extreme political issues worldwide.
Snapblade 18mm razor, sharpie, blistex (superior to balm/stick in every way), bandages and alcohol prep wipes and triple antibiotic, Sawyer mini filter and a vacuum insulated bottle, and a towel - you never know when you'll need a towel.
Oh also an extra mask, couple napkins, some new folded up tissues, and earplugs.
Make a SWOT analysis for each option. Quantify EVERYTHING you can into personally objective and subjective values. Then A/B all of those values against each other. Then sleep on it, ask other people, and then return to the SWOT tables and try to add and simplify.
If you still have troubles after that, try to figure out what about either choice you don't know, and work to find it out with footwork and socializing, asking pointed questions, and paying attention to the things you want in life about people.
If that still doesn't tip the scale, it's probably because you don't know enough about something else, probably yourself.
100%, music. Get on a music service (not a video service like YouTube) and go listen to genres of music that feel good.
Music that you liked when you were 13
When you were 21, music that reminds you of the good times
Or music that fits how you feel..
Seriously, don't underestimate the power of music. It's literally like magic and has the power to heal, inspire, distract, inform, validate, remind, transport, stimulate, numb, etc.. I became a musician because I wanted to help people through hard times and to be better people, because I realized how powerful and important it is.
Go try old stuff, too, like bob dylan. Or go listen to Linkin Park again like it's 2003. Or go listen through the entire nutcracker suite by Tchaikovsky (i suggest looking for the decca phase 4 London festival orchestra worth robert sharples that was recorded in the 60s https://youtu.be/S7VrwRJ4t-Y?si=cmLUTdUAmg2jw7kr i think it's the one, I'm not sure on my phone where it is on spotify). Or if you want to listen to the same song over and over and that feels good to you, then that's what you should be doing.
Just keep searching and following the good feelings and don't give up, like trying new sexual stuff and not trying for a specific outcome but allowing yourself to be in the moment and feel then sensations.
And feel your feelings. Just find someplace safe, get a good sound source, and let it all rip.. if you feel like crying, cry. If you feel like being mad, be mad. You have to actually process your feelings.
A wise man once said to me, "there's no bad music, only bad timing". If it feels off or wrong, just switch it. It takes courage to try something different sometimes, though, so try not sweat it too much either way, and just remember to breathe.
That picture of Pam from The Office, "They're the same picture"
Thank you for this craving.
Risk management is hard.
Valve is an independent company.
I've been thinking a lot about this for the past few years, and have noticed a trend in what games I've found to be actually good.
I noticed three very specific commonalities, and all of them have at least two:
- Foreign (Non-American)
- Indie
- Small studio
Basically all of the good games that I've liked in the past ten years have been at least two of these, and I'm sure if you think about it, the great games you've played have also been this way.
Stop buying big US studio games, their shareholders all require them to maximize their income with really anti-comsumer and predatory designs and practices. You won't have fun, and it'll be expensive.
Go play EDF5 with some friends. It's jank but super fun. 6 is being translated and ported to PC soon.
Raft is great, too.
Talos Principle was fantastic, if not a little melancholy.
And weirdly, Minecraft Java is still good fun. Go check out some of the mod packs like All Of Fabric 6. Host a local server, port forward, play with friends. Literally world-class, free content made by grassroots, passionate developers who do it because they love it.
Valheim was great years ago, and while their development cycle is slow, it's been solid.
But seriously. When somebody refers or suggests a game to you, the first thing you should look at are how they make money, because that is ABSOLUTELY where the industry is at, and has been for a decade now. We used to have centralized talking heads like Total Biscuit who would bring up topics and discussions trying to keep these studios and publishers in their place, but he got taken out too early and now the community is ultra fragmented with no central integrous authority to reference and publishers and studios are out of control with nobody to answer to except investors.
It's like the loss of a union, except it's industry wide.
There are gems out there, but you gotta get past the advertising and learn to smell the bullshit business practices. They don't have to be standard, but remember that gaming has only turned into gambling and Gaming-as-a-Service (GaaS) because credit cards got involved post-purchase as a source of revenue.
Sure, good things come from it, but the trade-offs are entirely insidious and clearly motivating for standardized enshittification. We adults made our own graves by accepting and spending. Sure, even if the money isn't that big of a deal and the content you get might be good, you're voting with your wallet and training a soulless system.
It's ABSOLUTELY a mirror world, just like the media - if you consume, there will be more. Stop buying shit games like Diablo 4. Blizzard can take the hit unfortunately, and if those business practices stopped making as much return as they did, they wouldn't be supportable.
Sure, initial prices would go up, but at least the games wouldn't be ruined with money shops, proprietary currencies, battle passes, and all the other ultra predatory shit that makes them money that ruin gaming.
Reward creators and studios that stick their necks out to make something purely fun, despite their CFO compromising and forcing their developers to implement these practices because otherwise they'd: "be leaving money on the table, and we are a business, after all."
But remember:
- Foreign
- Indie
- Small Studio
These are demographics that are typically more resistant and empowered to make FUN games.
Yeah a sleeping bag is the way to go here. Get a mummy bag if you can and just wrap up tight.