QuillQuote

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I finally learned why NTs don't like it when you explain yourself after you've done a bad thing in c/neurodiverse@hexbear.net
[โ€“] QuillQuote@hexbear.net 1 points 3 years ago

They think explaining is making excuses for your actions, when really it's you articulating that you understand what the problem was and will correct for it, and just want them to know that you know

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Not so fun stories (venting, really) about stories from childhood that, in hindsight, were tied to your Neurodiversity (hexbear.net)
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I've always treasured the fact that I'm weird, and as such have lots of little fun memories that I think back to positively of times when I was a fun little weirdo, but those times are the exception not the rule of my childhood, I'm sure I'm not alone in that

incoherent ranting

(I've been struggling with phrasing and how I want to structure this whole post but that's starting to stress me out and I'm editing and re-edditing things so fuck it I'm just posting it and freeing myself)

I was explicitly blamed for 'ruining' several vacations throughout my childhood. As in, we'd pack up and head home and my parents would angrily tell me how I fucked everything up for everyone. Because I didn't handle a lot of what came with travel and amusement parks super well, especially waiting in lines, being overstimulated, and or just being bored in an unfamiliar or uncomfortable place, like the couple ski trips 'I ruined'

When I was first put on medication, we went to the pharmacy to get it and then when we got home my mom put it in the medicine cabinet and showed me where so I could take my medicine. The spot she decided to put it was in a tray labled "pain management" so being like 10-12 at the time, I took this to mean "okay, I'm a pain to be managed away". Now, the reason she put it there was because the rest of the cabinet was full and she didn't really think about it, certainly didn't realize that I would take it so harshly to heart, but yeah I was mad at myself for that for years.

One such time was when we went to Disney, right before bed for some reason I accidentally took my adderall when I meant to get an advil but went for my pill on autopilot. This result in me obviously not sleeping at all, tossing and turning in frustration and distress all night. My bunk was reaaally squeaky and my tossing and turning kept my whole family up. They made sure to share how thankful they were to me for my mistake

Hey mom&dad, maybe it's your fucking fault the vacation got ruined and not your young neurodiverse child's? No? Okay, you're right, I should just go fuck myself

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I hate sleeping. I avoid it whenever I can (hexbear.net)
 

lying in bed quietly trying to fall asleep is terrible. My brain doesn't stop, it's like a pitching machine that's gone rouge and I'm the batter stuck in the cage.

Whenever I'm finally about to fall asleep, I notice myself falling asleep and become fully awake, because my brain goes "Yes! I'm falling asleep! Hurrah!"

Every time :angery:

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What's a fear you have? (hexbear.net)
 

For me, it's messing up/ doing something socially unacceptable or hurting someones feelings without noticing. In my life I've done this many times, and the times it happened the worst were when I was having a lot of fun, and had no idea I was doing something wrong. I'm the king of miscommunication.

I had a long history of this, especially as a kid, and because of it for a long time whenever I was having a lot of fun in a social situation I'd suddenly remember past times when I messed up, and then I'd go down in a self-doubt spiral and it'd kill my fun and start acting weird.

Republican Voters Don't Know Anything About Their Party. That's Very Bad for American Democracy. in c/politics@hexbear.net
[โ€“] QuillQuote@hexbear.net 0 points 3 years ago (2 children)

I highly recommend sorting this thread by controversial

this one has -84 upvotes

All of the "conservatives" here begging for checks are just playing into the Democrat's plan. Don't you understand what they're doing?

We're going to be locked down for years. We're going to need stimulus for years. It doesn't take long to get people hooked on something. After only a little while, we'll start getting politicians asking "isn't this free money nice?" And then they'll make it permanent.

There should be no stimulus without reopening. Get people back on their feet, but then also get the country moving again.