bottom dysphoria stuff, sad
After thinking a lot about it and what I'd like, I have finally admitted to myself and put into words what I've felt for a long time.
I will never like my genitals as much as I do cis women's.
BountifulEggnog
joined 2 years ago
:meow-hug: I can't understate how much I love hoodies.
I'm fine being toxic to the cis, but being toxic is not good for me personally.
talking about sh scars, sad
Usually I don't think about them much but the way light hit one of them just made it super visible and now I'm crying. I don't know what there is to talk about with it, it just made me really sad all of a sudden.
Not being toxic about that type of thing is incredibly hard for me sometimes.
This is the regular mega, why did you list it twice?
Damn but I wanted something nice for myself :kitti-cry: can you allow me at least some girl clothes?
I truly do not understand cishet...
The coldest take you could have around these parts 
Thank you for sharing. I obviously am not very far into transition at all, but this post really spoke to me, a lot of part 1 was very relatable.
When I figured it out, I wasn’t scared of being trans. That made perfect sense. But the stigma? That’s terrifying.
Absolutely. That stigma is the only thing that is holding me back.
Ghost apartment with no apparent personality? Check. Apathetic outlook on my potential and future? Check. Difficulty connecting with others on any serious level? Check and maybe still like this. Pathetically “consuming” fetish "material" late at night before ashamedly crawling into bed?
James sounds relatable too 
I'm still dependent, and (despite bad politics) he seemed pretty good up until the trans/autism stuff. Because of the dependency stuff it'd be hard to switch without coming out (because I'd want one who specializes in trans stuff, obviously). I'm not ready to come out yet and even when I do it'll probably be a wait anyway so 
it is what it is. Just unfortunate with those being the two biggest things in my life right now.
spoiler
:agony-shivering: that's a fair assumption.I don't know what to say that won't be (seen as?) shitting on others to be honest. I should just shut up about it until or unless I get bottom surgery.
I'll try to believe you. Honestly, I don't really though. It doesn't help you have every reason to just tell me it'll be okay and exactly the way I want. Maybe if I keep feeling shittier and shittier about it I'll just post my full thoughts, idk I don't want to upset people.
Thankfully I don't want a uterus anyway.