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Thank you.
Honestly I can't remember seeing a cis woman who looks worse then me though. Maybe some men do? I can't really evaluate that.
BountifulEggnog
joined 2 years ago
more dysphoria shit
Wearing a hoodie right now, but the sleeves got rolled up and I saw how much disgusting, pitch black hair is on me. If I can I'm shaving everything when I get home, jesus christ this is awful. Kinda tearing up tbh.
Thank fuck for hoodie weather though.
Also I hate someone talking to me and I'm feeling voice dysphoria, like genuinely just stfu and stop making me hear myself.
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:meow-hug: I'm sorry you didn't get help. Worst time of my life, I know how that feels.
I didn't get help until a mandatory reporter told my parents how bad things were, I guess they didn't see it like she did.
Glad things are getting better :cat-trans: I look forward to it.
me apparently not knowing what words mean
Wait... 25 is the cut off? Well uh 🤔 huh. Interesting. For whatever reason I thought it was 18.
Thank you :meow-hug: I am actually doing a really good job being nice to myself right now. Unusual, but a very welcome change from how it normally goes.
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I guess at least I finally know what my issue as a teen was. It was this exact feeling, this feeling of hating my body, but I did not have the language. My supports just assumed I was really depressed. No one ever suggested this loathing and depression about my body could be something other then "oh you need Prozac, I get sad too". NO I need fucking estrogen!
Not really, maybe six hours, might have been more like five though. Sometimes pin pointing when I actually woke up is hard because I usually drift in and out for a little bit.
dysphoria, sad
I really don't want to be dysphoric/spiral today but I am, it's starting. I'm crying right now. I'm stuck in this awful, horrible body. Yesterday was such a good day but I guess that can't always be me :kitty-cri:
I wanted to get more cleaning done today too but I don't want to leave my blanket. I just feel really sad.
I'm not eepy any more :owl-pissed: but I wanted more eep.
Hope reinhabiting your brain goes well!
Also having my "should I come out" arc and I really don't know the answer. Maybe.
Think I'll write another letter if nothing else though.