BountifulEggnog
joined 2 years ago
He still posts on twitter too
I'd watch that charity stream
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I know they define me... it just sounds even more hopeless when I say it like that. I honestly don't know how to explain my struggles to you ~~that's why it took so long to reply sorry~~. I have autism and avpd. Its not just fitting in with NTs better... I struggle constantly because of my issues. Its so hard to form deep relationships. Its hard for me to say literally anything. And obviously there's more issues. I know I can't repress how I am, I just... I don't know.
I can't. I literally have to change. I am not happy like this. You don't come across preachy. To be blunt, it feels like you don't understand my problems. Fair enough ig, I can't communicate clearly to save my life. Thank you for being nice though.
That's very nice of you. You're always really kind.
Only because they can't be. I would love to not suffer from them.
Words don't mean anything
negativity about trans / NDness, dysphoria
Why do the two things that effect who I am the most cause me so much pain 
I literally don't understand how anyone can like either of them. Maybe their experiences are just different then mine. Not a day goes by that I don't struggle because of them.
I want to be normal. I want to interact with people normally. I want to be able to build friendships normally. I don't want to hate my body. I don't want to cringe every time I speak. I want to be okay with change.
I'll never have that. I'll always be uncomfortable. With how I interact with others and my own body. That's my experience with being trans and ND. Wanting normal, healthy relationships and experiences but forever being on the other side of the glass. There's one friend who has made me feel not that way. But who I am still causes issues.
That's my identity I guess. Two massive problems that can't be cured, only treated. And I barely have the coping skills to even treat them. I don't know why I'm posting, I guess incessant whining is the third key part of me.
Estradiol treatment may not make me entirely happy with how my body looks.
Heartbreaking
So true 
It'd be nice to stop the procrastinating on training though, everything else can stay.
No drone flying in the area, for security reasons. You can get a waiver if you're a commercial drone pilot with work in that zone. Its illegal, we'll shoot it down, shoot your dog, etc. Just keeping people from sending their drones up to take a look(/warning them that they'll be viewed as a security threat and dealt with the same way, don't waste your drone).
They want us dead