I smashed my knee on a wall last night and it still hurts 
BountifulEggnog
joined 2 years ago
Good job! I know that stuff is tiring but you did it :3
talking about abuse/trauma? Just want to be sure I'm tagging it properly, sorry.
Yes, especially as a child. Mostly from my dad. That really brings a lot of my issues together. I really... don't know to what level I should feel grateful to them I guess. I think I'm usually a very grateful person.
they could be much worse
This is what and how I am always thinking. He sets me on edge a lot too.
No, you're good, thank you for saying something. Its all a lot for me and this is very productive thing for me to think about.
spoiler
He seemed like he was useful, before the transition stuff (and he does legitimately seem very knowledgeable?). Now he doesn't really help (what I need is trans support stuff but he just can't/doesn't give me that), but my parents think he's good and they wouldn't want me to switch without a good reason. I am an adult and I know I don't have to explain myself, but they generally give me a lot of grace and I worry that would go away. My dad has already expressed discontent that I'm "still in the same place I was a few years ago" and asked a few times what we're doing.
Thank you 
dysphoria
I really need to work harder on transitioning, I think that's a lot of my problem. There's so much to change and it feels like little has. I am really hoping to push myself to take more steps this next week.
I try not to think about it much, but I really wish I had better irl support. My therapist does not understand the importance of transition to me or the impact my other issues cause me. He wants to chalk everything up to my avpd and that I don't try hard enough, basically.
I feel like a child left unattended.
I feel like this semi often and its really a mixed bag.
I need to stop looking up words I see on hexbear.
I definitely can't deny those allegations 
I'm sorry I'm so bad at this ahhhjijdhydwajajhaaa
horny
I'm actually a little unsure if I'd like bottoming but if someone was really gentle with me...
Probably not :comrade-raccoon: I'm not a good learner.