I'd rather be a good girl, but I am definitely not a lovely lady.
BountifulEggnog
joined 2 years ago
I'd like to second genderisopsec's recommendation, that website helped me figure things out a lot. I am curious though, what things prove your cis-ness?
Thank you 
that means a lot.
Fuck it
spoiler self harm and suicide
Why am I even alive? This is all just pain, its been pain for so long, and I don't see that ever changing. There is so much pain from so many directions. sh'd earlier and it did nothing for me. So like really, how am I supposed to stop being in pain? This happens literally regardless of what I do. Do girl stuff, feel like shit. Self care? shit. smoke weed? A bit better tbh, best I ever feel, but still there. Obviously there's a lot of gender pain, but there's other stuff too. And I am just so sick of all of it.sad
Even posted about it makes me feel like shit. Like oh here I am just bitching when other people have it worse. Why even post about ending it when I don't have a method. Just stupid drama baiting shit tbh. Probably how everyone sees me. Can't even sh properly so how am I even going to go through with a plan anyway.
Anyway I'm just rambling, I want to escape this. fwiw I don't have a method so don't worry about my safety too much. ::: Edit: I'm going to head to bed now, hoping to feel better tomorrow. Goodnight mega.
sad
Yea, actually didn't communicate this one well at all, sorry about that.
Yea very 
for me too.
Maybe some of it is thinner layers, but acetone works so much better to remove nail polish then the "gentle" removers. I'm still surprised it just wiped away, not an issue at all.
it doesn't help that you can't really ease into T the way you E takes forever to kick off.
I thought microdosing T was a thing? Although I haven't looked into it much, just heard a trans man talking about it (very briefly).
Thank you