BountifulEggnog

I don't wanna be aggressive :shy:

I'd rather bark at trans people.

Goodnight

Thank you, I hope so

Thank you, just in a really bad state right now.

whining, dysphoria

I haven't complained about it in a while, but voice dysphoria continues to be terrible. Want to come out to a friend or two, but the thought of using my voice, egh. Obviously the actual coming out can be over text, but after that I can't explain it. I hate pretending to be a boy, but saying I'm a girl and sounding like this...

Voice is just disgusting and horrible. All wrong. I don't have any idea how I'd want to sound either, if I could pick.

I know it won't get better without voice training, I know I need to, I know I should, all that. I'm not trying right now, I just can't. I know nothing will get better until I do. not worth continuing this and typing out all my self hatred.

spoiler I've said this before, but I'm thinking about it again and not like I can tell anyone irl I remember not liking my voice changing during puberty. Thought that was normal and I'd like it eventually. Clearly I was wrong, and tbh I wonder if I'll ever like my voice again. Current trajectory isn't looking good. How sad. Just ruined by T. ::: fwiw yesterday was quite good for me, very calm. A nice break from some of my usual struggles.

Hope you feel better soon, I always hate feeling like that.

The frogjacketing

Fall rain is such a vibe, why can't it be fall and rainy all the time?

homeostasis

homostasis

Thank you.

Its not unwelcome, thank you for the advice.