BountifulEggnog

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Thank you! It's been difficult. I've really wanted to hit 14 days. Hopefully more milestone posting in the future. :cat-trans:

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Edit: things are not great, some not great thoughts, but I think I'm going to be okay tonight.

dissociation/dysphoria

I don't understand what's happening. Things should not actually be this hard for me. I should be okay. But I don't feel okay. Its wrong. I feel disconnected. And then I'll be reminded of the wrongness. I'll speak, or feel my body, or hear "my" name. I feel like I'm in a dream. But this isn't a dream.

spoiler self harm, scars I have a very strong desire to sh. I have the accidental stuff from shaving, it hurts but I want more. There's always more. I'm somehow 13 days free from using something sharp. I can't sh. I don't want to keep getting more scars. I'm already upset about what I have. :::

I don't think its infected, the scab is just attached to my sock in a really not great way. Probably should have put a bandaid on or something. I'll try and do that, I'm not sure what first aid supplies are in the house but I will clean it out. This was a brand new one, but thank you that's really good to know. Being able to make them last longer is really nice for me.

I will :3

I thought it was a bad meme, seemed weird to tell you to read theory for saying that.

I (accidentally) cut myself pretty badly shaving (I was doing it wrong). I then did not take care of it properly, and now the problem is worse.

At some point I'll take care of myself properly, I hope.

Wait, why were they screaming at you about that? Is every trans man a misogynist?

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Actually started reading whipping girl last night, was going to wait until I was a bit further in to say anything but seems relevent

eating, dysphoria

Decided I should eat something before bed, got upset the calories won't go towards tits, think I'll skip it. Goodnight mega.

god I want tits.

No you're fine, just thought that was a little cursed Well I can't hate a funny kink thing.