BountifulEggnog
Good to re-confirm that my safety and health is at risk regardless of which color wins.
Yes, definitely.
I have been practicing/learning the minecraft 1.16.1 speedrun recently. I've mostly been practicing my bastions, but I also did a bit of one cycling practice today.
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First success, only five beds too! Still a bit off from doing full game runs, but I was pretty happy with this.
I've played a few times, I'd be interested but I might need a little help. Let me know when you're picking a time.
Thank you Naom3 :meow-hug: I really hope it does.
I've been playing minecraft, some bedwars and trying to learn the 1.16.1 speedrun. Right now I need to practice my bastions and learn how to 1 cycle the dragon.
dysphoria, self harm, si, just really struggling idk
Last night was hell. This morning is more hell. I can't take it. This is all so stupid. I just can't. There's nothing to do. I'm scared. I feel hopeless.
I don't want to hit fat. I can't end up in the hospital.
This is just awful. No escape. No way to escape.
This is stupid, I don't understand why I'm flipping out like this or how to stop it. It just hurts. Everything hurts and I can't stop it. I don't know if things will ever be okay.
I can't take this pain.
edit
Well, self harm urges are gone for now. I don't feel amazing or anything but a lot better then I did earlier.
There is so little going on in gender (for me) 
Kinda feels like I'm never going to actually make the jump to doing gender irl.
Thank you