I hope your better half is doing okay, speaking of void.
BountifulEggnog
joined 2 years ago
Is this the sorosfootsoldier thing or did something else happen?
I hope it goes back 
I watched it, can I give up hope now?
This is pretty much how it is for me, taking it like 15 minutes~ before laying down usually works well for me. Can't sleep without it, but couldn't when I started taking it either. I've also heard good things about cbd/cbn, but I don't know how available cbn is up there.
I got three hours of sleep last night and emotions are hitting harder, if I don't get sleep I'm going to end up breaking down and I really don't want that.
Also I had a dream where my bangs finally got cut, I need to fix my hair so badly it looks awful.
I'm sorry you had to find out this way 
No (it's over)
I feel awful. I know it's because I didn't sleep well last night, but this isn't new. Just feeling it more today.
dysphoria, hatred
I hate being male, I hate what T has done to me, I hate my voice, I hate how fucking huge I am, I hate how lonely I am, I hate how everyone is going to see me from here on out. I hate the way I exist now. I don't know how it's going to be okay again. I'm disgusting. I hate myself.I was hoping to have an opportunity to get on hrt soon but looks like that won't pan out. Unfortunate. Whatever, probably a bad idea to start when I'm so dependent anyway. It doesn't feel like I'll ever pull myself out.