adhd got me today

Rewatching Re:zero has been tough. I keep falling asleep

Tomb Raider 4 (Last Revelation), 5 (Chronicles) and 6 (Angel of Darkness) are getting remastered. Does that mean they will actually finish Angel of Darkness and it will be actually playable?

Crushposting:

I know their phone number is correct, because we did a test call when swapping. I know they have low days. I know they struggle with answering messages. Either of these reasons is valid enough on its own, and should calm me down.

…But there are also other possibilities: that they stood me up, or that they got into trouble. In both these cases there’s nothing I could do. (Except of course to have been a better person all along so nobody would stand me up, or to constantly be by their side to help them out of trouble 🤡)

It’s probably just a low day, and I sent them 2 short messages and attempted 1 call spread out over like 5 hours, which I hope is not too clingy or annoying.

Miss Andry would make a great Pro Domme name

Every once in a while I remember that Anna Greenspan is married to Nick Land. I wonder if she tells him to shut the fuck up

Hey Hexbears have I misandry anything?

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I usually miss out on struggle sessions, but I've been busy on a solo shift so I'm mostly just lurking

I was gonna give my phone a cool sindarin name but then I went to some sindarin translation forums and remembered that people who can speak sindarin make people who are fluent in Klingon look grounded and illiterate.

If anybody has a bunch of time and would like to proofread books, do come talk with me. The most time consuming part of making EPUBs is proofreading, so having more people to do that would help.

Lol, I love how this style of posting is just the Ukrainian version or kids really mad their english teacher made them read a book.

I read absolute batman 1, the proletariat reimagining of batman and it was pretty good, i liked the art and the story was a good origin story, i like the changes they added like making bruce childhood friends with other member of his rogue gallery like killer croc, dent and penguin, also his mom is alive in this universe. i liked their version of the joker. Its looking to be a good run

yellow as an orange

What the fuck Dumas

To put this further into perspective, there are less GMs than billionaires. 2000 vs 3000. You literally have a greater shot at becoming a billionaire than earning a GM title.

Less than fractions of a fraction of a percent globally could ever hope to attain the rank of GM. Even fewer who already have the financial means to afford it.

Damn, chess is intense. It's a good thing I have that DAWG in me

My org has nominated me for leader of the Nationalists Caucus. It’s a more “rough” group of people who are leftist but come from a pretty hard background. Many of them dropping out of high school or lower to help their families. They then become swayed by leftism through left-nationalism.

It’s the biggest caucus of the org and I’m honestly flattered about the nomination. Whether or not I get the position is another story.

I'm pretty sure every social media company copying twitter and making their APIs prohibatively expensive had the unintended sideeffect of stopping those dumb scams where the CEO of my company emails me and asks for an urgent favour where I buy him a gift card.

I saw a term earlier that I was gonna look up but I told myself I'd remember it and look it up later

It's later and I should've just looked it up then

Anyone remember eating? Cutting is literally... not fun! I used to be easy going and full of energy. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

wish i could muster any sort of interest in anything at all

been having incredibly bad panic attacks lately and i barely do anything outside my room. i go to work and come home and maybe go for a walk, but that's it. i spend 95% of my free time in my room reading books or watching shows or playing games.

Working on the kernel of a story about the Blue Wizards and the men of the East, where the Blue Wizards "lose faith" (I forget how Tolkien described it) because upon reaching the nations east of Mordor they come to love the people and cultures they find there and become upset and dismayed that all of these people were left in the clutches of Morgoth and later Sauron without aid from the great powers in the West. While they don't turn against the Valar their discovery of the horrors wrought on the men of the east does lead to a crisis of faith which causes them to doubt the limitations of their mission to simply resist Sauron and, after spending many long centuries providing aid and counsel to eastern men in their efforts to resist the Dark Lords, they decide to remain among men after the defeat of Sauron to continue to aid them in re-building after millenia of oppression and torment, only returning to Valinor much later and then only in spirit, having lain down and died in their corporeal bodies rather than bodily journeying back to Aman.

When they finally return they are greeted with curiosity rather than hostility. They explain their reasoning to the assembly of the Valar and the Valar understand that their failure to aid the distant men of the East, due only to their distance from the blessed land and a belief that these men were lesser as a result, was a shameful failure. The blue wizards are reconciled with their friends and kin and continue to abide in Aman thereafter, satisfied that the time they spent counselling and aiding the men they came to love was time well spent, and that the men of the east will cast off the last of Sauron's shadows and propser by their own wisdom and abilities.

I'm also playing with the idea that some of the elves captured by Morgoth in the First Age escaped in to the east and maintained a small colony, joining the culture of the men there and becoming a small community of immortals who acted as preservers of knowledge, wisdom, and memory in a land that frequently faced enormous destruction at the hands of the dark lords. Heroes and sages would fall before the might of the Dark Lords, kingdoms would perish, but the small community of elves would endure and help their short-lived friends rebuild, inspiring them with stories of their forebears.

When the blue wizards arrive they bring the eastern elves up to date on the long, sad history of their western kin and the men, elves, and wizards join their strengths together. After the defeat of Sauron the Elves join the hosts of men who pursue the broken remnants of Saurons armies west, eventually meeting outriders of Gondor. From their the elves journey to Minas Tirith and meet King Ellesar and Arwen, and are overjoyed to see kin again after so many thousands of years of separation. They travel west and leave Middle Earth for Aman on the very last of the ships to leave the Grey Havens. Arriving in Aman they become a source of great joy as friends and relatives separated by countless thousands of years, and even by death, are rejoined at last.

As these elves were so distant they had no contact with Valinor or their western kin, except that the Valar were aware of them. Unable to reach them by conventional means this small group of elves would receive visions from the great Valar - Manwe, Orome, Yavannah, Aule, and Olmo, but these visions were dim and came only in sleep. Rather than explicit instruction they nudged the eastern elves towards inspirations and insights, while providing hope and comfort.