Thanks for the kind words, I'm trying my best! Remember just saying something kind about something you like is also a rare art, and I hope you keep that up!
BTW, you can "follow" people on lemmy by shooting a message (even if it's just says "Follow" in the message) and then just visit your sent messages and look for the ones that say "Follow" and click the user you sent them to. Not perfect but it's something.
If not, I'm sure I'll see you around. Cheers!
Hey there, sorry this took so long to answer. I usually only have time to get on and type real answers at night.
A good way to find out is a combination of a couple tests. The RAADS-R is the most accurate known autism test. It is known to be over 80% accurate by itself. Here is a free one that doesn’t require registration: https://embrace-autism.com/raads-r/
I would combine that with this one, especially if you're high-masking (this would feel like doubting you're autistic too, but the doubt itself is not a diagnostic criteria): the CAT-Q is a good test to identify camouflaged autistic traits that you’ve learned to hide. This one is also free from the same place: https://embrace-autism.com/cat-q/
BTW/FWIW if you’re 18+ there is less reason to get formally diagnosed. University of Washington did a study some time ago which found self diagnosis is rarely wrong. The paper states, "We believe that if you have carefully researched the topic and strongly resonate with the experience of the autistic community, you are probably autistic." Link to that PDF here: https://depts.washington.edu/uwautism/wp-content/uploads/2022/09/Self-Diagnosed-Adult-Autism-Resources-handout-9-22-22.pdf
As always, feel free to ask if you have questions even if it's not autism stuff. No promises but I'll try my best. :) It’s a big world to navigate if you're new to it.
So sort of my point is that community only feels like work when you're in the wrong community. An ant doesn't wake up and so "shit I need to act like an ant today". It just does ant stuff.
When you're in the right crowd, it won't feel like work.
Step 1 is figuring out who you are. A lot of people don't even begin to get there until they're 30yo or more--our world simply does not foster being yourself. Many others learn either much later or sadly sometimes never. Psychologically speaking, "target fixation" is a functional concept. Simply wanting something will attract you to it. Spending a lot of time dreaming of something will draw you to it. Be careful though, the same effect can happen with being jaded as well. You can of course spend your time thinking about who you are or that other people suck. I recommend the former, of course.
Step 2 is actually wild. Once you get closer and closer to being authentic and let go of the resentment, people will attract to you. Humans have an uncanny ability to sniff out fakeness, and they will avoid or ostracize you for it. When you're in tune with yourself, it's actually super attractive. A good example of weird being charismatic is Jack Black or Aubrey Plaza. They are not afraid to be different and people love them for it. But different isn't the magic sauce, it's being real.
Step 3 is now that you know who you are and people are coming to you, is to remember your boundaries. Maybe you don't like going to the mall. So say no. You may get anxiety doing this in the beginning but it gets easier. If your friends only to be friends because you would give them a ride to the mall, they're not your real friends. This is a nice tool to keep being certain that the people around you like you for you, not for your utility (maybe you give transportation, they emotional dump on you, maybe you always buy, etc).
Hope this helps. I'm no professional but I will do my best. I love this shit so much--it changed my life and if it can help even one person I'm all about it. I wish someone told me 20 years before I knew!
P.s. I replied to the other person that replied with a comment you may find useful as well.
Compulsory disclaimer before I begin. I am not a mental health professional but I'm autistic and it's my special interest. I have read dozens of psychology books, watched interviews, and have thousands of hours of research into this stuff. I love it and it's changed my life. HOWEVER.. that doesn't mean I'm a pro, and these are topics that require a pro past a certain surface level. If that's on the table, I can't recommend it enough. If you get a therapist and don't click with them in the first hour or so, I recommend moving on to another one. It's super common in that world and not seen as offensive. If you cannot or are not ready, I don't mind chatting with you a bit and I'll tell you the beginning.
So you can answer a couple questions for this. Don't feel obligated to share your answers with me, but you're welcome to if you feel like you want to.
Yes: If you do, that is voluntary masking and you can "catch" it and try to correct. Practice makes perfect. A good example of this would be if the Boss is in town and you decide to dress a little nicer and use the big business words when you talk to them. It's a deliberate act and it can have a purpose.
No: If you feel drained after dealing with people and you know you're not really "one of them" even though on the surface level that would be hard to prove, that would be subconscious masking. There are many kinds but the most common category would be trauma-based. A trauma mask can be visualized like this (this is fiction, domestic abuse trigger warning): [a wife comes home to her husband already drunk and about to get physical with the kids. She's calm in the moment, handles the husband and pacifies him. Gets him in the recliner, gets him fed and with his remote and another beer (against her wishes), and he eventually passes out in the chair. Everyone is safe. That night when all the kids are in bed, she breaks down shaking from the stress of the whole ordeal.] << That would be a description of a trauma mask. Trauma masks kick in automatically and you may not even know it's happening in the moment but afterwards you have anxiety, feel sick, or just plain exhausted.
No: Disregard. Just for giggles, read the "yes" as well. Autism is massively under-diagnosed.
Yes: So if you're autistic (I very briefly looked through your posts. You seem to program and have a strong sense of justice... I'm just saying I would look into it.) If you want to know more let me know, I can show you some tests that can get you a pretty good idea. Anyway, if you're autistic, the whole thing about trauma masking could apply to your entire existence and you may not even know it. It sounds insane but it's true and a super common shared experience among especially late-diagnosed autistics, like if you're an adult and don't know you're autistic yet.
If you answered "yes/no" or "yes/yes", you have already begun your progress by being curious! Don't forget you can have voluntary and subconscious masking at the same time so as you figure out your voluntary stuff, some subconscious stuff may still be there.
If you answered "no/no" or "no/yes" I would recommend a book by Devon Price, PhD called Unmasking Autism. Even if you're not autistic or in some other way neurodivergent the tools to find one's authentic self are the same (both are trauma masks, remember?). The book can be a little heavy but it's well worth it. It has a unique way to call out stuff that we'd never even think to complain about but is super valid.
I know this was a long ass reply. I'm happy to write more. If you have questions or want those autism questionnaires, just let me know. I'm not affiliate or anything, and they're free and anonymous as far as I'm aware.
I would challenge that's not your authentic self. That's learned behavior.
If you have been constantly othered or made to feel out of place you will grow resentment towards certain people, and eventually people as a whole.
When everyone is authentic and kind, community happens. Consider people who LARP.. they likely would get mocked alone if a single one went to the mall, but in a community with shared expectations and values they have a lot of fun!
Learning one's authentic self is a journey. Learning boundaries (which allow you to stick to that authentic self) is also a journey. But I do recommend.
To extend what others have said, your "social battery" depletes when you play a persona/mask. Sometimes with neurodivergent people (autistic/ADHD especially) this mask can be completely subconscious and unknown to the person.. it's pretty tricky to learn how to reverse it.
In either case, learning how to be your authentic self without shame is all the fix. Of course this may not be possible depending on environment but it's something to work towards.
I had the "social battery" issue until I learned how to be me. Sadly, most of the people I knew were acquainted with the masked me, so those friends grew more distant but I have since found people with the same kind of "weird" and social situations are no longer draining (at least with those people). It took a couple years but I can't recommend it enough.
That's fair, but we don't know why they said they weren't sure. Could be educational issues, memory issues, etc.
Not a good look either way. Wild to me that number is so high.
This is interesting, thank you for sharing.
I personally would tally this up as "12%" rather than "24%".
Or at least in my opinion, option "D" (bad person that did some good things) is most likely the closest to an objective answer and "E" (completely bad) is a totally acceptable summary. But both D and E both summarize Hitler as bad. The people summarizing him as "balanced" or "good" totaled to 12%.
To be clear, this is still horrific imo.
That's not fair phrasing and will lead to high numbers.
Hitler wasn't "all" bad technically, he was just so bad that the good shouldn't matter at all. Pushing forward technology (VW Beetle, Autobahn) should is no way be justified by genocide (obviously).
A better question would have been something like "do you like Hitler overall?"
This 100%.
Sometimes you can be the hug they never got when they were a little kid and their fuckhead dad beat them instead of letting them be gay (or whatever authentic self got crushed).
I'm not saying you should put a huge amount of work into this but sometimes being kind and meeting someone where they're at even if they're super wrong does more to break the mold than to be a dickhead back. These people have a lot of experience doubling down to resistance, and if you surprise them with kindness it can shake up the whole setting.
That said, if you're kind and try to teach them, and they're still bastards/non-receptive, then move on and change the minds you can. Don't waste your time on people that don't want it.