Everyone has periods when they feel alienated and utterly alone, scorned by the world etc. Etc.
When I was a teenager the answer seemed to be to goth up, smoke very bad hash in the graveyard and drink snakebites.
Actually thinking about it, a lot of the goths at my school were girls so I dunno where the fuck the idea its only men who can feel like this comes from.
Yeah I mean being very isolated and very defensive towards colonisers is about the only strategy that seems to work.