me_irl

Had a woman on a dating app spend 3 months convincing me to go on a date with her. I was like, "this is fake." and she was like "is it that impossible of an idea that someone would want to spend time with you?" I finally met her. we ended up sleeping together.... like immediately. I didn't want to, but went along with it because I didn't want to make her feel bad by rejecting the idea (despite the fact I already did once). The next day I felt used, like sleeping with me was all she wanted. Ended up not ghosting, but going so cold on communication I might as well have. She ended up feeling used as well, and moved on quickly.

Moral of the story? I dunno. I'm working on it. stopped trying to date after that and a near-firing incident at work, just been doing the depression work from home shuffle for 6 months. But I've started dieting/working out again, so that's nice.

Pro-Tip: you're worthy of love, despite what you tell yourself.