Melbourne

At my casual retail job, I don't get a consistent number of hours. Last year, they asked me if I wanted to do a three hour shift that starts at 7am on a Sunday which is every week. I said yes due to the consistency and the pay being good. But I find myself being unable to sleep at a reasonable hour, and so every Sunday, I am extremely groggy and irritable. It's been a year of this, and I ruined the relationship I was in because of emotional impulsivity due to lack of sleep. I also consistently make little mistakes during the shift that I wouldn't make if I had slept properly, which also probably affects the way the managers see me. I tend to daudle getting ready because I'm so tired and am usually in a rush to get to work. I also don't get to go out on Saturday nights, which I guess isn't that much of a dealbreaker, but still kind of sucks. I've figured something has to change. I feel like if I can't even wake up at 6 without being a freaking insomniac, I don't think I'll be able to hold down a job. I don't know how I'll be able to wake up for placement if I do teaching or some allied health course.

So it's either, I force myself to wake up at 7am every single day and keep the 6am wake up on a Sunday, in the hope that I'll be able to sleep better and improve my sleep hygiene. This is coming from a night owl who somehow just comes awake when I'm supposed to sleep. I'm thinking this is probably the better option for now because I don't have the energy or time to write cover letters.

Or I quit and find a more predictable part time job that will allow me to take annual leave during potential placement next year. This will probably help with giving me a sense of routine.