Well done for accepting yourself. I do have the privelege in some sense that if I wanted, I could pretend to be straight. Maybe that's an aspect that riles some gay people up. I can confirm I don't repulse women :) until that is, they figure out or find out that I'm not straight. Then it's almost always the instant evaporation of attraction.

As far as I understand it, for some women, their idea of attraction to a man is still (despite the clamouring for equal rights) tied to how macho the man is. Sex with men, or trans people, destroys that machoness. Then you've got the insecure ones who assume because you also find another gender attractive, they can never be enough for you, or that you will cheat. I've never, ever cheated on a partner. Finally you have the ones who assume that not being straight, you're highly promiscuous and therefore riddled with STIs. I can't speak for other guys but before I realised I was pan I used to joke I'm not bi, I'm bi myself. Very much not promiscuous, and very much take the necessary precautions whenever I sleep with someone (which is rare).

Notice how just speaking about my experience caused someone to downvote my comment. We can't even exist without offending some people.

[–] Ghost33313@kbin.social 1 points 1 year ago (1 children)

I seemed to pass as straight to cis gendered people, but like you said they are looking for that macho man vibe and despite my trying they could always see through it. Only gay and bi people ever showed signs of or did question it. I think much of what makes people uncomfortable about LGBTQ+ is because they see things that they see in themselves they don't like. Society forces people to conform when things are far from black and white.

For example, despite saying that I am bi I have a strong preference towards women. I only crushed hard on a guy once, but never mentioned a word of it and was just best friends with him until we went our separate ways, due to the aforementioned homophobia around us. I wonder now, at this point, how different my life would have been if society was more open. I strongly suspect he wasn't strictly het either as his wife is pan as well among other things.

[–] Transcendant@lemmy.world 2 points 1 year ago

You know, having a preference is completely normal. I don't think many bi people have their preference split 50/50! Not sure if you're familiar with Kinsey Scale, worth looking into.

Interestingly, my 'type' for women is almost completely the inverse for guys. Similar to you, I have a preference towards women / trans women, though I sometimes wonder if that's still some inbuilt shame from society.